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I am finally going to follow the lead and try and avoid posting in multiple different places. I am going to try and do most of my rambling in this thread.
My cognitive issues are making it harder and harder for me to focus on multiple things. That combined with my laundry list of other issues, makes functioning at all near impossible.
Having to go through medication experimentation again is going to make it even harder.
Whenever I have to refocus because I literally can’t remember blocks of time or where I am and why I’m here kinds of things , I’m usually able to come here and figure out through my posts and profile etc.
That has proven to not work very well at times. I wondered if I centralized my thoughts here that maybe that might work better.
That also keeps me from being a distraction from those who are more deserving than I.
@mytwistedsoul
Hello twist and Iam.
@mytwistedsoul
Hi twist. I will write to you today also.
@Helgafy I'm sorry you've been low with energy. Is there nothing that can help? Your faith brings you comfort. My grandmother would have said that even though it's doctors that treat the illnesses, God works through them. I struggle with the concept because I have many questions and the answers seem vague.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hello from Newfoundland & Labrador Canada 🇨🇦 the home of iceberg alley! The season has started ! Yay ! 🦅🐻❄️🦭🥶❄️🧊
I am thrilled to see the activity here on this thread … just beautiful support all the way around.
Just wanted to say hello 👋 it’s my first day as Forum Supporter … these messages here made me smile right large …. 😊
Cheri
@SunShineAlwaysGrateful
The thanks for that deserve to be sent to @Helgafy and @mytwistedsoul. They are the ones continuing to bring their sunshine, their positivity and support to this very dark spec in the universe. They continue to build a friendship in a place built upon negative things. Proving that there is true humanity still in existence in this world. I have nothing to do with their beautiful interactions here.
They deserve the recognition for your kindness and support of their efforts. Thank you.
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Friends Iam and twist.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
@Mytwistedsoul
Hi!
Yesterday I was thinking of one line of a song. The line is "Turn around". You can hear it 2 times in the song "Total Eclipse of the Heart" by Bonnie Tyler. (The rest of the poetry in the song has nothing to do with me - ha.ha. It is a bit scary with the eyes and the students are too young for her..). What I want for the lives of the 3 of us is that our lives turn around to be very good and fulfilling.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
@Mytwistedsoul
To my brothers at 7Cups.
Today I give you the old song "Chain Reaction" by Diana Ross. Let us all get into the chain reaction so our lives become better and better and we fly higher and higher. Ross was married to the Norwegian mountainclimber Arne Ness and she has a son together with him.
@Helgafy Hey :) I'm sorry that you were so down with depression. It's horrible feeling that low that you can't see any light any where. It's heavy. Are you able to sleep when you feel that down?
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
@Mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hi.
@Helgafy I'd like to thank you too. For writing and for your friendship. They both give me something to look forward to :) and help me feel less lonely
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy You knitted socks for the little dog! 😊 That is so sweet! I bet the little dog appreciated them too on those cold days ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Good morning to you twist.
What a wonderful drawing you found - I can see he also is wearing the vest for the cold - but he forgot the socks!
@Iamwhoiamwhoami How are you Iam? You've been in my thoughts. I have to admit I miss reading your posts. I don't mean to pressure you or make you feel like you're being pressured in any way of course. I think about the Christmas tree you did for the community here sometimes. The time and effort you put into it. It was a very beautiful thing to me. You have a beautiful heart Iam - even if there are days you don't believe it or can't see it. Lol - now I'm the one rambling. Guess I just wanted to remind you in case you needed to hear what I see. If not feel free to disregard and tell me to stuff it lol 😊 get your hat and we'll go pick on @Helgafy 😁
@mytwistedsoul
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@Helgafy
@mytwistedsoul
I appreciate your kindness as always. Your continued communications have not gone unnoticed by me. I just don’t have anything new or worthwhile to say.
Still on the same downward spiral mentally, physically and now my work life has joined into the mix.
I am getting more and more lost everyday, when I start to think that I can’t possibly get any lower , I slip further away.
I think at one point ( at least by my writings) that I actually wanted to try and explore the religion aspect again.
I am rambling again. I just wanted to say I still read your communications, I just don’t want to inflict my extreme negativity into your beautiful positivity.
That is true but not completely the reasons. I have suffered through life alone and even though I have been lucky enough to stumble across this wonderful community, I still revert to suffering in silence when things get worse. I wish people who actually have people who love and support them would be able to open their eyes and recognize and reach out and grab ahold before they get to the point I have gotten to.
I understand that I have support here but it isn’t the same as having that support in person. Maybe it should be, but I have never had that love and support and I have become so separated and isolated from people that I have been forced to rely on myself even though that is the worst person to rely on.
Rambling again. I will wrap it up , this has turned into a negative post again when all I wanted was to express my gratitude and appreciation for both of you.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
I am glad to see you posting here. Even if you think no one is interested please keep posting , rambling etc. I think all of the people here want to hear from you and show support to you no matter what you post. Its helpful to get it out right ?
I understand about the negativity. I grew up in the most negative environment and I have trouble with this too. It was drilled into me very young so theres a kind of conditioning I guess you could call it. It was kind of a cult like environment .
Sharing here helps me and it makes me want to help others here. I just wanted to reach out and let you know I was thinking about you.
You deserve kindness and support my friend.
ABB💟
@amiableBlackberry92
Thank you as always for your support and kindness. I think I have written some recent periodic ramblings in previous posts and I believe I have actually created a few newer ones. I try and let the positivity that @Helgafy and @mytwistedsoul have blossomed here in this area continue unhampered by my constant negativity. I appreciate what they have created out of everything written prior. If I have any other ramblings I try and keep them in other areas.
I had something else to add but my brain is flickering again. Sorry, maybe I will be able to think of it later, Thank you again.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Iam - I bless you in the name of the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm sorry to hear that work has joined the other issues. The would be difficult and would add to any anxiety and depression. I wish there was a doctor or specialist some where that had the answers you've been looking for and a treatment that would help.
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Friends.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
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@mytwistedsoul
3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5
@Helgafy How are you? The weather's started to get nicer here. Time was used to start some seeds for the garden. Strawberry plants were cleaned up and in the greenhouse they starting to flower already. It won't be long until there are fresh strawberries to eat. The peach trees are blooming and the plum tree
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Friends.
I'm a little bit down in energy so I don't know when I can come back to write to you.
@Helgafy
Please take care of yourself, we will be here whenever you gain the strength to talk to us again, Your brothers on this earth. Hopefully @mytwistedsoul doesn’t take offense to my speaking for them on this point.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami No offense taken at all ! :)
@Helgafy I'm sorry your energy is so low right now. Rest and relax. Be gentle and patient with yourself. We'll be thinking of you and sending you strength and good vibes ❤️ Take good care of yourself
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Thank you so much for your writing. I have been reading this line each day.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Here is a verse for you (and for me Iam): Jeremiah 23:24 KJV. Can any hide himself in secret places that I shall not see him? saith the LORD. Do not I fill heaven and earth? saith the LORD.
@mytwistedsoul