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Iamwhoiamwhoami December 1st, 2022

I am finally going to follow the lead and try and avoid posting in multiple different places. I am going to try and do most of my rambling in this thread.

My cognitive issues are making it harder and harder for me to focus on multiple things. That combined with my laundry list of other issues, makes functioning at all near impossible.

Having to go through medication experimentation again is going to make it even harder.

Whenever I have to refocus because I literally can’t remember blocks of time or where I am and why I’m here kinds of things , I’m usually able to come here and figure out through my posts and profile etc.

That has proven to not work very well at times. I wondered if I centralized my thoughts here that maybe that might work better.

That also keeps me from being a distraction from those who are more deserving than I.

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WorkingitThrough2 September 12th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Hey, it is me... Checking in on you? I wish I could talk to you again just to comfort myself knowing you are okay as best you canlaverne-and.gif❤️

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Helgafy September 13th, 2023

@WorkingitThrough2

That's such a nice hug working.

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WorkingitThrough2 September 13th, 2023

@Helgafy

You deserve it😊

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 13th, 2023

@WorkingitThrough2

Thank you for checking in on me. I’m still here just not up to writing anything.

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WorkingitThrough2 September 14th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Sending you strength and my hand to hold❤️. I am here if you need some TLC😊

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Helgafy September 14th, 2023

@WorkingitThrough2

That's so nice said of you working.

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Helgafy September 13th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Hi soul.

I know you're so interested in nature, so here is something I wanted to tell you. I watch a show now called "Zu Tisch" which means "to the table" - German - but it is translated. (I talk some German). It's about food from different countries. So they showed from Morocco. (I have been to M., Agadir when I was in my 20'th). There is a tree living in the desert, argan tree. The roots can go 40meters down to find water.
(So I'm thinking a bit of myself - striving to find a good life with sickness and everything - maybe I must go deeper to find "water".)

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mytwistedsoul September 14th, 2023

@Helgafy There's a couple of shows like that here. They're always interesting to watch because each episode shows foods/meals from a different country. I think it's so awesome that you've traveled so much to so many different places! I can help but admire the effort that a tree would go to to survive such harsh conditions. You're like that too and Working - maybe Iam too - even though you struggle with things you also work very hard for things to be better ❤️

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Helgafy September 15th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Thank you so much soul.

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WorkingitThrough2 September 24th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

How are you? I am thinking about youlove-you.gif

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 26th, 2023

@WorkingitThrough2

Thank you for your concern. I am still around, just not up to writing anything. My depression and other things have been pretty intense for the last couple months.

Even though I appreciate and am thankful for everyone here. It is not the same as face to face friendships. I’ve become more reclusive and miserable than I ever have been.

I suppose this is just who I’m destined to be. I just am not up to writing anymore journal entries right now.

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WorkingitThrough2 September 26th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

I understand and that is ok. Just take care and know that you are in our prayers❤️

WorkingitThrough2 March 17th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Hello, my dear friend. You have been on my mind for a while, but I had a lot going on. How are you?

How is your health doing? You don't have to respond to me, just know I am still here for you❤️😊

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Helgafy October 3rd, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami
@mytwistedsoul
@WorkingitThrough2

Hi friends - I'm back on the horseback! Well - because of my health I think it is better that soul rides the horse and I lye down at the cart.
I have been missing you 3. Iam let us have a site here.
Last Wednesday I got this message from 7Cups: "We are writing you to inform you about the status of your member account with 7 Cups. You were recently reported for engaging in hurtful behavior towards another user of the community. 7 Cups is an emotional support site and, thus, we have a zero tolerance policy for this type of behavior. As a result, we have suspended your member account. " So for 6 days I could not write at 7Cup, but I could read. I saw that the message I wrote when I told you I was a bad lady was removed. So maybe that was the issue, or it could have been another post that also was removed. There was this person who struggled. I told I also struggled and quoted Matthew 11:28-30: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” This person didn't like what I wrote at all and the text was deleted. If this case was the reason I was suspended I wrote to 7Cups that Glen (the leader of 7Cups) gave me (and everybody) permission to quote from the scripture (I asked because I was deleted 3 times for quoting the scripture).

So yesterday evening I got this message from 7Cups: "Thank you for requesting that your account be reviewed. After reviewing your account, I have restored it for you. "

Iamwhoiamwhoami OP October 19th, 2023

Same stuff different day 

Iamwhoiamwhoami OP December 30th, 2023

Words have been escaping my grasp for quite some time. I have been struggling with doctors and medication attempts. I still struggle with the same laundry list of issues. 

Doctor is frustrated with me and my issues. Taking me off of a few depression meds and going to something else. How can someone who has lived in the deepest, darkest realms of severe depression know , even have the tiniest suspicion that the meds are helping?

I do think that the med for headaches and sleep (brain flickers) has helped. I still have brain  flickers , just not as severe, I think. That or I am just getting used to them. 

I thought there was a few of you that were using one of my posts to communicate back and forth? Hopefully you all are still doing so still. I enjoyed seeing your friendships blossom.

WorkingitThrough2 December 30th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Thank you,I think your thread got lost somehow. I missed being able to talk with you.

How is your health doing? How was the Holidays for you? Did you find a Bible that you liked?

No pressure to answer these questions. I just want you to know I am still here for you❤️😊

mytwistedsoul March 12th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami @Helgafy You've both been in my thoughts. ❤️ 

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