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Iamwhoiamwhoami December 1st, 2022

I am finally going to follow the lead and try and avoid posting in multiple different places. I am going to try and do most of my rambling in this thread.

My cognitive issues are making it harder and harder for me to focus on multiple things. That combined with my laundry list of other issues, makes functioning at all near impossible.

Having to go through medication experimentation again is going to make it even harder.

Whenever I have to refocus because I literally can’t remember blocks of time or where I am and why I’m here kinds of things , I’m usually able to come here and figure out through my posts and profile etc.

That has proven to not work very well at times. I wondered if I centralized my thoughts here that maybe that might work better.

That also keeps me from being a distraction from those who are more deserving than I.

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Helgafy March 31st, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Ha.ha. You 2 bluebirds don't want to be bluebirds (in my home) anymore. You changed unto eagles and rose high, high into the sky.
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mytwistedsoul March 31st, 2023

@Helgafy You knitted socks for the little dog! 😊 That is so sweet! I bet the little dog appreciated them too on those cold days ❤️

Oh wow Switzerland is such a beautiful place too! You've been to many beautiful place in your life. I think that's so awesome! I'd like to visit some of those places one day. Alaska is on that list. I'm half afraid that if I go there I won't want to leave lol
I think I'd prefer being a bluebird - eagles reach heights that might be a little scary sometimes 😬
You knitted socks for the little dog! 😊 That is so sweet! I bet the little dog appreciated them too on those cold days
Oh wow Switzerland is such a beautiful place too! You've been to many beautiful place in your life. I think that's so awesome! I'd like to visit some of those places one day. Alaska is on that list. I'm half afraid that if I go there I won't want to leave lol
I think I'd prefer being a bluebird - eagles reach heights that might be a little scary sometimes 😬
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Helgafy April 1st, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Good morning to you twist.

What a wonderful drawing you found - I can see he also is wearing the vest for the cold - but he forgot the socks!

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mytwistedsoul March 31st, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami How are you Iam? You've been in my thoughts. I have to admit I miss reading your posts. I don't mean to pressure you or make you feel like you're being pressured in any way of course. I think about the Christmas tree you did for the community here sometimes. The time and effort you put into it. It was a very beautiful thing to me. You have a beautiful heart Iam - even if there are days you don't believe it or can't see it. Lol - now I'm the one rambling. Guess I just wanted to remind you in case you needed to hear what I see. If not feel free to disregard and tell me to stuff it lol 😊 get your hat and we'll go pick on @Helgafy 😁

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Helgafy April 1st, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Twist - like you I've also been thinking of Iam. Maybe he's not feeling so good. So here comes some things for you to do. Please put him in his small bluebirdbed. I have some homemade carrotbread with crisp crust that you can give him. Please also remember to drip some drops of water on his very small birdtongue. Then you can put his wing in your wing until he falls asleep.

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP April 1st, 2023

@Helgafy

@mytwistedsoul

I appreciate your kindness as always. Your continued communications have not gone unnoticed by me. I just don’t have anything new or worthwhile to say.

Still on the same downward spiral mentally, physically and now my work life has joined into the mix.

I am getting more and more lost everyday, when I start to think that I can’t possibly get any lower , I slip further away.

I think at one point ( at least by my writings) that I actually wanted to try and explore the religion aspect again.

I am rambling again. I just wanted to say I still read your communications, I just don’t want to inflict my extreme negativity into your beautiful positivity.

That is true but not completely the reasons. I have suffered through life alone and even though I have been lucky enough to stumble across this wonderful community, I still revert to suffering in silence when things get worse. I wish people who actually have people who love and support them would be able to open their eyes and recognize and reach out and grab ahold before they get to the point I have gotten to.

I understand that I have support here but it isn’t the same as having that support in person. Maybe it should be, but I have never had that love and support and I have become so separated and isolated from people that I have been forced to rely on myself even though that is the worst person to rely on.

Rambling again. I will wrap it up , this has turned into a negative post again when all I wanted was to express my gratitude and appreciation for both of you.

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amiableBlackberry92 April 1st, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

I am glad to see you posting here. Even if you think no one is interested please keep posting , rambling etc. I think all of the people here want to hear from you and show support to you no matter what you post. Its helpful to get it out right ?

I understand about the negativity. I grew up in the most negative environment and I have trouble with this too. It was drilled into me very young so theres a kind of conditioning I guess you could call it. It was kind of a cult like environment .

Sharing here helps me and it makes me want to help others here. I just wanted to reach out and let you know I was thinking about you.

You deserve kindness and support my friend.

ABB💟

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP April 1st, 2023

@amiableBlackberry92


Thank you as always for your support and kindness. I think I have written some recent periodic ramblings in previous posts and I believe I have actually created a few newer ones. I try and let the positivity that @Helgafy and @mytwistedsoul have blossomed here in this area continue unhampered by my constant negativity. I appreciate what they have created out of everything written prior. If I have any other ramblings I try and keep them in other areas.

I had something else to add but my brain is flickering again. Sorry, maybe I will be able to think of it later, Thank you again.

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Helgafy April 2nd, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Iam - I bless you in the name of the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

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mytwistedsoul April 2nd, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm sorry to hear that work has joined the other issues. The would be difficult and would add to any anxiety and depression. I wish there was a doctor or specialist some where that had the answers you've been looking for and a treatment that would help.

I've had that thought too occasionally. Wondering if the peace I seek lies in scripture and prayers. Maybe being part of a congregation would help bring people into your life?

I do understand the isolation and separation from other people and being able to rely only on yourself. There was never anyone else to turn to. I also understand that the worse things get, the farther you withdrawal. Some times we feel safer alone or maybe it's that we feel it's safer for others? This place, as wonderful as it can be sometimes, has too much forced positivity and having someone say I hope it gets better for you doesn't ease the struggles or suffering. Nor do the affirmations muttered to a reflection in a mirror each morning. But I must admit that it's a nice thought at times. If only life were so simple.

For what it's worth, I see nothing negative about anything you wrote here. You were honest with your thoughts.
This got longer than I intended. I apologize for that. Thank you for replying. There's never any pressure to do that okay? I know sometimes that takes energy we just don't have.

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Helgafy April 2nd, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Friends.

I have a plan for you 2. You have many things in common - so why don't you meet now over a cup of coffee and talk. You can meet for example outside the "Trump building" at 2 p.m. in New York City the same day as he'll be arrested, on Tuesday. After that if you feel like you can go to twist's farm and he can show his animals to you Iam. He can make an omelette for the 2 of you because he has many hens.

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Helgafy April 2nd, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”



Helgafy April 3rd, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?”

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Helgafy April 6th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

@mytwistedsoul

3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5

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mytwistedsoul April 6th, 2023

@Helgafy How are you? The weather's started to get nicer here. Time was used to start some seeds for the garden. Strawberry plants were cleaned up and in the greenhouse they starting to flower already. It won't be long until there are fresh strawberries to eat. The peach trees are blooming and the plum tree

The living room walls are painted and the trim is being ever so slowly finished. Trim seems to take forever it seems
Guess I got a little lost a long the way but I saw a bluebird this morning and it made me think of you and showed me the way ❤️
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Helgafy April 9th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Friends.

I'm a little bit down in energy so I don't know when I can come back to write to you.

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP April 9th, 2023

@Helgafy

Please take care of yourself, we will be here whenever you gain the strength to talk to us again, Your brothers on this earth. Hopefully @mytwistedsoul doesn’t take offense to my speaking for them on this point.

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mytwistedsoul April 10th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami No offense taken at all ! :)

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mytwistedsoul April 10th, 2023

@Helgafy I'm sorry your energy is so low right now. Rest and relax. Be gentle and patient with yourself. We'll be thinking of you and sending you strength and good vibes ❤️ Take good care of yourself

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Helgafy April 15th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Good morning to you twist and thank you so much for your writing and reaching out. I guess this is your favorite season, plants blooming and growing. I guess I don't have so much of the writing-creativity these days.
Today I'll just be a little, grey mouse, staying in your pocket and following you around at your farm. I'll hold myself up with my 2 front legs looking out over the edge of the pocket, watching what you're doing.

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP April 9th, 2023

You come first. You are too important.

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Helgafy April 16th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Thank you so much for your writing. I have been reading this line each day.

Helgafy April 18th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Here is a verse for you (and for me Iam): Jeremiah 23:24 KJV. Can any hide himself in secret places that I shall not see him? saith the LORD. Do not I fill heaven and earth? saith the LORD.

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mytwistedsoul April 13th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami @Helgafy *sending you both good vibes* ❤️

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Helgafy April 16th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Twist.
You have a cat you told. If I (the little grey mouse) is allowed to run around in your house, can you then please fasten a bell to the cat's neck so I can hear him and hide so that he doesn't eat me for dinner or supper.

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mytwistedsoul April 17th, 2023

@Helgafy You're more than welcome to hang out in my pocket :) This is a favorite time of the year. The woods are greening up and the peepers sing at night. You helped plant some flowers and peas this weekend. There's no need to fear the cat because he's not allowed in the house anymore

I hope you're feeling better ❤️
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Helgafy April 19th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Good morning to you twist.
The little, grey mouse d i e d. The body is transformed to dust. Now I'm just a little, white bunny jumping after you in your foot-steps.

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mytwistedsoul April 19th, 2023

@Helgafy Well that sucks that the little mouse died - hopefully it wasn't my fault. Now you're reincarnated as a bunny? I like bunnies too 🐇


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mytwistedsoul April 17th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami @Helgafy Thought I'd share the day with you both

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Helgafy April 18th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Thank you so much for the photo. What do you have inside the small house?

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mytwistedsoul April 19th, 2023

@Helgafy It's just a small tool shed. There's shovels and rakes and a few bags of mulch in it I think.

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Helgafy April 18th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

A word that I thought fit for you who loves nature:

Let my teaching fall like rain
and my words descend like dew,
like showers on new grass,
like abundant rain on tender plants.

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juliak1968 April 18th, 2023

@Helgafy

That's really beautiful!~

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Helgafy April 27th, 2023

@juliak1968

Friend @Juliak1968

I know you're humble regarding suffering. But how do I carry the weight of being depressed often the whole day long. I know other people in the world are suffering also. There is nothing to do about it - I take my med.

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juliak1968 April 27th, 2023

Hello @Helgafy I learned to take part in a few activities which is my only real socialization. It is so important to be secure amongst friends who are easy going

Blessings, Day

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Helgafy April 24th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend twist.
Do you know that you're living someone's dream? I watched the news and a soldier in Ukraine was intervjued. He had been fighting against Russia for 10 years now. He is 28 years old. His dream when the war is over is to work at his farm and work on his house there.

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mytwistedsoul April 26th, 2023

@Helgafy Hopefully he can soon live his dream soon

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Helgafy April 29th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Good morning to you sweet twist.

I think you don't need my greetings now because your life is perfect in the Spring because of all the growing on your farm.
But - when I was a teenager we were dancing a dance called "twist". If you want to you can also listen to the Beatles singing "Twist and shout".

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mytwistedsoul April 30th, 2023

@Helgafy Hey :) It's nice to see you. ❤️ Spring is cold and rainy. Lol life is far from perfect. There's things going on right now that I don't quite know what to do with. Depression hit hard and tbh - I didn't have the words to say much to anyone. I hope you've been ok. I thought of you everytime I saw the bluebird. There's a sparrow that hangs on the porch now. She's very noisy lol

I know that song! I like Chubby Checkers - Let's Twist Again :)

@Iamwhoiamwhoami you've been in my thoughts :)

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Helgafy April 30th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend. I just want to shower you with the love of Jesus Christ.

Helgafy April 30th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Maybe this is good for you to read. If you want to I can also hold you in my arms a little bit to comfort you. The Old Testament was for the Jews. But now, after Jesus came we all can read the words as ment for us.

Jeremiah 31:20 NIV

"Is not Ephraim (twist) my dear son, the child in whom I delight? I still remember him. Therefore my heart yearns for him; I have great compassion for him,” declares the LORD.


mytwistedsoul May 1st, 2023

@Helgafy I - thank you. I wish I could believe in his compassion but I think maybe it's reserved for other's that have a goodness in them that I lack. Maybe some are just too lost they can't be found or saved. Can we get too many marks against our souls? Do you think that's possible? I don't mean to sound however that sounds. I appreciate you and a part of me does find comfort in your verses and your faith ❤️ You're a wonderful person with a very big heart ❤️

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Helgafy April 23rd, 2023

Friends

@mytwistedsoul @Iamwhoiamwhoami @juliak1968

A little bit of this and a little bit of that:
I watched a doc. at BBCWorld from an island not noticed on the map. There was not enough food for the small birds there. So they went to the big birds, removed a feather from them and drank the blood. I think (maybe) they ate some louses.
So - for us; we can take a mouthful of water and bread pretending it's the Lord's blood and body. He conquered everything by his death and resurrection. John 6.56:
"He who feeds on My flesh and drinks My blood dwells continually in Me, and I [in like manner dwell continually] in him."
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juliak1968 April 23rd, 2023

@Helgafy

Amen

Blessings, Day
🙏

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Helgafy April 28th, 2023

@juliak1968

Friend @juliak.

You use the words "blessing", "amen" and the symbol of hands praying. Can I ask you if you consider yourself to be a Christian as I am?

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juliak1968 April 29th, 2023

@Helgafy

No, sorry ; I don't think so

Blessings, Day

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Helgafy April 29th, 2023

@juliak1968

OK - thank you for the answer.

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Helgafy May 1st, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend. My heart goes out to you. Also - when we're depressed we often think lower of ourselves than when we feel better. Remember your grandmother telling you you have a good heart. So - we have commercial channels and state channels on our TV. In Norway we have a bag of different small chocolates called "twist". These days the TV-channel shows commercials about this product. So about 5 times yesterday when the c. came up I remembered you and asked God to bless you.
The Gospel, God's mercy, grace is for everybody. Maybe you remember that the person (robber) hanging next to Jesus Christ at the cross was saved. He just asked JC for a thought. “Jesus answered him, ‘Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.’ Luke 23.43. Maybe you could listen to old speeches of Billy Graham. He tells the gospel very clearly.
Also I will remind you of the compassion of Jesus Christ as a shepherd. He leaves the 99 sheep and goes to find the 1 that is missing. In Luke 15.4-5 you can read JC's words about that: “If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won't he leave the ninety-nine others in the wilderness and go to search for the one that is lost until he finds it? And when he has found it, he will joyfully carry it home on his shoulders."

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mytwistedsoul May 3rd, 2023

@Helgafy Thank you :) for your thoughts and for your words to God. Your words give me something to think about. The lost sheep and yes the sheppard would go look for the lost one. I meant to reply sooner but every time I tried I would get choked up and emotional. That hasn't happened in a long time

There's an old bible here. A big thick heavy one it has really beautiful pictures in it from various stories. It was given to my grandparents when they got married. Years ago I used to spend hours looking at those pictures. Fascinated by Jonah and the whale and Daniel in the lion's den
Thank you for your kindness ❤️ It means alot
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Helgafy May 4th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Thank you so much twist for your writing.

And what a treasure that old Bible is. If you want to, you can also buy a new one. I have the "amplified" Bible to read when I want to read in the English language. It is easy to read. I recommend you to start reading the New Testament. If you want to, you can get a Bibleverse for free each day online. I do that in English. This is the one I got today:" Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin."
If you want to know it is very easy to become a Christian. You just ask Jesus Christ to come and live in your heart. And then you can pray the verse above. Jesus Christ took all our sins and they were nailed with him at the cross.
When I was a teen-ager my aunt sent me a plan for reading the Bible for teen-agers. After that I read the book.

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mytwistedsoul May 4th, 2023

@Helgafy I had bought a new one a few years ago but idk what happened to it. My grandparents went to church. Grandmother was very active. She sang and played the organ and did things with the ladies church group. Grandfather went because she made him lol. I went too when I started living with them. Used to do a youth group thing on Wednesday nights. That stopped after a few months cause the youth group minister had a thing - well you know. He went -away - for awhile. I've been baptized and saved - twice. There's a lot of anger towards god. I feel bad saying that to you because I know he's a source of comfort for you. I'm sorry - I don't mean to waste your time - my thoughts about god are really complicated on this subject ❤️

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Helgafy May 5th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend. I'm so, so sorry for all the complications other people have brought to your life. I don't understand all those things because most people have treated me with love. You can be mad at God. He can handle it. I'm also glad you see a therapist with whom you can talk. Maybe it is better for you that I talk of other things than the Creator, (please tell me!). But still this is the verse that is on my mind today: Romans 8:35-39 "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

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mytwistedsoul May 5th, 2023

@Helgafy I don't mind at all that you talk about god :) it's part of what makes you - you and I'm grateful for you. And the verses you share here - you're sharing yourself and they do bring a sense of comfort and they make me think about the bigger picture of life

I'm grateful too that you've known nothing but love from the people in your life because you are a good kind and gentle person ❤️ Thank you for being you

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Helgafy May 11th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend twist. I hope you are well.

The bunny can't jump so maybe you must carry it in a backpack. But that's too heavy for you so I don't know what to do.

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mytwistedsoul May 12th, 2023

@Helgafy The bunny is pretty small. I think a backpack is a wonderful idea or maybe bunny would prefer to ride in alittle wagon instead?

How are you? It the weather getting nice there?

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Helgafy May 12th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend of mine.

A little wagon is very fine. The bunny wants to eat a salad-leaf and a carrot today. Yesterday I (my body) was weak, so I wore my pink nightsuit all day long, 3,5 months since that last happened (but my head was feeling light so I could watch TV - also about D.Trumph who will be intervjued by CNN. He was convicted in the case of April in NY I hear.) But today I'm stronger (I hope) so that I can give water to 4 of the flowers in my livingroom and harvest a little bit of onion from my garden for my schrimps.
I hope your day can be fine.

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mytwistedsoul May 12th, 2023

@Helgafy Bunny is in luck! There's some fresh lettuce and carrots here. And some fresh picked strawberries :) They're nice and sweet

I'm sorry to hear you were so weak yesterday - I hope you're ok . I'm glad you were able to water your houseplants today ❤️
I haven't watched the news in the past few days - spending most of the day outside being busy. Today I mowed the field that's here. The deer will soon have their young and they take them to the field to play - so it's nice that the grass is short
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Helgafy May 13th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

The bunny got a friend - how awesome is that! Can he come with when you pull the 1. bunny (me-lol!) around. Can he (I think he may be a cloned you) also have carrot and salad please. He likes the waggon very much.

mytwistedsoul May 15th, 2023

@Helgafy They're very cute bunnies aren't they? Of course they can ride around together and there's plenty of carrots and salad for both! It's a very nice wagon :) I'm glad they like it ❤️

Helgafy May 16th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friends twist and Iam.
I was so very low in the pit yesterday. For 3 days I could not put on my clothes. For 2 years this happened to me 10 years ago (when I was 60 years old). But today I could put my clothes back on again. Friends - if you want to - you can pray for strength for me (each day ha.ha.).
So I'm telling of myself. Please don't hesitate to tell of yourself.
Here is from the godly Helga the verse I got today: "Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior,
who daily bears our burdens."
So - @Iamwhoiamwhoami - came to our wagon as a bluebird. He really wants to eat a raspberry. Can he have one please?

mytwistedsoul May 17th, 2023

@Helgafy I'm sorry to hear you were so low. I'm glad you were able to get dressed today.

I'll definitely send you some good strong vibes. I hate to think of you being so low for so long 😞 I know it happens but it's never easy. I hope the day was gentle to you ❤️
I've been learning to cook! More than just microwaving hot dogs lol! I seem to go from being depressed to highly anxious. The restlessness is sometimes the worst. It feels like I can't fit into my skin. It's hard to share my thoughts and feelings
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm afraid the raspberries haven't come in yet but there's some sweet strawberries in the green house

Helgafy May 17th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend.
Thank you so much for your writing.
I love that you cook. So many fine hours to spend in the kitchen!
I hope your therapist can help you with your mind. I hate to think of so many bad and unfair things that have been done to you. I don't know if your "depressions and anxiety" is the brain's way of trying to handle it all. I don't know - maybe some kind of breathing-exercise could help. I guess there are some online.
Things have been done to you when you could not stand up for yourself. You're good at expressing your thoughts and feelings.

In English I often mix strawberries and raspberries. Ha.ha. Beatles has a song "Strawberry fields forever".

mytwistedsoul May 17th, 2023

@Helgafy I always liked to bake. Its fun and it's something that helps me slow down a little. Relaxing I guess 🙂

The therapist has been alot of help with something's. Idk if anyone can fix my mind tbh it might be a little too broke for that but I'm learning to cope. I don't drink like I used to and there hasn't been any SH in months. Those are pluses in my book. I do alot of breathing exercises. I pay close attention to my breathing because it helps me get an idea of where the anxiety is
I love that song! They played it on an oldies station the other day 😀❤️
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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP May 7th, 2023

You are both kind and gentle people.

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mytwistedsoul May 8th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami *hugs to you my friend* ❤️ You've been in my thoughts

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Helgafy May 17th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Twist!
You know that God is a very big deal for me. When I wrote of him here I did it for yours and Iam's sake. (Iam earlier told that he liked it when I prayed for him or quoted Bibleverses). But you have bad experiences unfortunately with persons you have met that call themselves Christians. You also told that you have a bit of a difficult relationship with God (because of your bad experiences I think). My relationship with God is simple. So - because of that - I'm a little bit afraid of talking of God to you because the words I come with may feel that they hurt you.

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mytwistedsoul May 17th, 2023

@Helgafy Please don't stop. Please don't be afraid to share that part of yourself 😞 You being the kind person that you are - I can't imagine a better person to show that God is good. My relationship with god IS difficult because of past experiences. You're helping me gain new experiences that are good and kind and come from a good heart ❤️




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Helgafy May 18th, 2023

@mytwistedsoul

Friend.

Yes - I have been baking cakes, bread, making dinners - all kinds of good stuff also. But 2 years ago I had to stop - not enough energy to do that.

I'm glad your therapist can help you. And of course I hope all your scars will become your stars. (Easy for me to say).

Wow - you've matured not to drink to solve your things! And not SH for months. Congrats!!! (I guess that is hurting yourself). When I grew up we never heard of SH.

I lift you up to our Father in Heaven's knees and ask him to take good care of you.


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mytwistedsoul May 18th, 2023

@Helgafy It must have been frustrating to have to give things up with your illness. I'm sorry it affects you so badly. I wish there was something I could do to help

Drinking was making things worse. It helped me forget things or maybe just made it easier to ignore them. Thank you! SH is an outlet for pain sometimes. Mental and emotional replaced with physical. Sometimes it's to feel something if you've been numb. Or punishment. It's a bad coping mechanism and can get out of hand
Much love to you for for your kind words ❤️
There's a saying - from your lips to God's ear - yeah? Thank you for your words to God - I do appreciate them alot
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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP June 18th, 2023

@Helgafy

please continue to be you. Talking about God with the sincerity and purity that you do is what religion should be about. Speaking of God and all the wonderful things you do is a big part of what this thread has become. You, Twist and all the others that periodically chime in.

Both of you have built a friendship that transcends everything. You both are amazing people. So please continue to be you, you are wonderful.

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Helgafy June 18th, 2023

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Thank you so much Iam. That was such a wonderful message from you.

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