Eva’s Crazy Mind

@unassumingEyes

i’m sorry i don’t wanna make you feel bad but i’m not sure if there’s anything you can do (absolutely not your fault), i appreciate you being here though. i’m sorry. 

@justmeeva i kniw theres not much we can do...we're just kids trying to be enough 

I know I cant take the pain away so i wont make it worse by trying

But just bcz I cant stop you from hurting doesnt mean I should leave you to hurt alone <3 im here. It doesnt help much, but im here

numb but still in pain. isn’t that great. 

starting to just accept everything. 

there is no hope or positivity left in me. 

@justmeeva

*sits with my lovely friend and sends her massive huggie wuggies if okie - because she so deserves them* 🥺🫂💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers

*hugs ni friend tight and doesn’t let go for a loong time* 🩷

@justmeeva

*hugs evabuddybean tight and doesn’t let go ever* 🥺💙 how are you feeling today buddy? 💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

the morning was bad… which made all sorts of thoughts haunt me for hours.. but atm it’s okie. how’s ni fren? 💕

@justmeeva

mhm :’) me saw evabuddybeanie’s posts. and tbh eva, ni friend is not you :’) me not in your shoes or in your head so i’m not sure what it’s exactly like 💙 but me understand and me can imagine how haunting thoughts can be. :’) it must be so painful to have to deal with them every day lovely 😞 *keeps huggie-ing evabuddybean* 💜 i’m proud of you for making it this far and for being here 💙 for still standing despite it all. even though you might not see it right now 💜 your strong 💙 and i appreciate that. i appreciate you 💜 

me glad it’s okie atm, though. me here if you need, okie? 💙 

i’m… idk. i’ve been like this lately lol 🤧 just… the idk-mood xD it’s my new default mood 🤭🤭 haha. 💜 tw/sh - last night me fought urges though so i’m proud of myself for that 🥺 me didn’t do anything to hurt self last night. :') thank you for asking lovely 💙 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

i’m happy you’re here ni fren 🩷

ik i’m probably not much help but you can still always come to me okie? i am so so so proud of you too 🥺. keep trying oke?

i loves you so much my fren 💕

*still hugs forever* 🫂

@justmeeva

last night when ni was thinking of doing the thingy, me reminded self of eva friend and her words 💜 so no :’) i disagree 💙 your way more help than you think you are lovely. 💜

i’ll keep trying… as long as you do too? 🥺 we can try together. 💙 and trying is good. 💜 

i love you so much too 💙 *forever hugs*

@justmeeva

*keeps hugging* i’m defo not letting go of this hug.🥺💙 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

*hugs forevereverever and more* 🫂🩷

i can feel myself becoming more and more useless day by day. 

@justmeeva

me understand the feeling… but has to disagree. your never useless 🥺 never ever. 💜 *hugs* you’ve always been so helpful buddy :’) and so caring 💙 the love, the warmth, the kindness you’ve brought with you - those things that come from *you* 💜 are never useless. 💙 me promise 🥺

oof. i just read what i wrote again and i just need to say me didn’t mean to make you feel worse about it :') me so sorry if i intrude eva friend’s space (?) 🤧 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

no no you didn’t do anything wrong. it’s very sweet of you and i kind of needed that.. thank you 🥺🩷

@justmeeva

hate me how ever much you want life, but i’m begging you, don’t make my night thoughts become my 24/7 thoughts..

funny how i start making up the most depressing and heartbreaking quotes, ideas, scenarios and whatever other stuff at night. funny. 

it’s 8pm brain. 8pm. i should have hours left. why am i sloowly starting to get thoughts already? they’re not flowing in and out but they come one by one and they don’t leave. what a shame. 

*sigh*. i honestly don’t have the strength to try to keep them away anymore. let the night start early then i guess. 

so it’s not that bad atm (yet), but the thoughts are lol. i can still come out of the dark place for now if needed. don’t mind the next posts i’m gonna make tho, they’re uh… you’ll see.

since when did my life turn to dark mode lol.

i constantly wonder what your life is like without me. 

it’s definitely helping to go through the sad quotes and messages in pinterest :D but hey, at least i feel understood? at least it’s relatable? at least it kinda makes me feel better although it doesn’t make anything better? yk?

@justmeeva

hehe, felt, evabuddybean 🤧💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers

idk how but i’ve reached the heart limit for you so in case you’re wondering, i’m still hearting al ur messages in my mind hehe. 🩷

@justmeeva

hehe, it’s okie buddy.💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers

also, if you still want to talk to me about anything, or spend some time together, or just *be*, we can do that. ❤️

@justmeeva

💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers

okay? just ask, anytime 🩷

@LoveMyMoonflowers

and i mean it. last thing i want is for you to be alone. 🩷

@LoveMyMoonflowers

okay?

ahemm- we’ll not talk about how i have a board of 283 pins, all some relatable messages. shh. …..

..

“it’s never too late.”

i wouldn’t be so sure of that.