Eva’s Crazy Mind

@justmeeva

awwe no no buddy your not ignorant or rude 🥺 not ever. me understand life isn’t easy for you :') it not easy for any of us 😞 life is hard and messy and sometimes we can be a bit messy too 💜 which is okie. 

i like to think of it like this. when evabuddybean is not okie :’) or okie, feeling happy, or feeling a bit off or depressed 💙 or feeling all kinds of emotions 🤧 you are still evabuddybean, your still you throughout it all. 🥺 your still you, and your still loved. my opinion of eva friend never changes 💜 even when she’s not doing so okie. me loves you always, my sweet friend 💙 *hugs you*

i’m so much unnecessary drama lol. 

@justmeeva

awwe no :') me don’t wish to invalidate your feelings lovely… but me has to disagree 💜 me don’t think your unnecessary drama 🥺 or that your being dramatic 💙 life is hard 💜 and we all have different struggles, different crazy thoughts that go through our heads :') different experiences 💙 life is messy. and beautiful too 💜 :') your not being dramatic at all 💙

awe you’re the best of the best ni fren. you’re so frickin sweet smh 🥺. ilysm /p 🩷 *hugss*

@justmeeva

*keeps hugging* you mean so much to me 💜 fr 💙 one of my bestest friends on cups 🥺 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

you too ni fren 🩷. i’m so happy i met you, and so happy to call you my friend. 💕🫂

@justmeeva

awwe 🥺 that means so much to me. and like fr 😭 *hugs* 💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

you’ll forever belong on top of the ‘kindest souls to ever exist’ list :D 💕

@justmeeva

and you will too 💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers

*hugs forever* 🩷

@justmeeva

yay! forever hugs :0 💜

it is now night so just ignore whatever crap i might write tonight. 

“list two things that you did well in the last few days”

….. *literally can’t find a single thing after 10min of thinking*

my glass would be all empty but my tears fill that one half. 

“oh i guess that’s just the way things go.”

your brain tells you what’s smart,

your heart tells you what’s right. 

wanting attention and wanting to be noticed isn’t the same. 

no i can’t anymore i’m *** done

it’s not *** fair

tw 

i want to scream

*** *** ***

it’s supposed to be the nights where i’m *** up the days are supposed to be *** okay

*** life

what the *** did i do to deserve that now 

oh yeah sure why not just keep adding *** to eva’s life she doesn’t mind 

but i’m warning you life, one day i’ll actually have enough. 

i can’t i can’t i can’t i can’t i *** can’t 

@justmeeva *sits with you* i believe in you. Just breathe for now love, thats more than enough for us <3

just tell me what to *** do because if those are supposed to be some hints i’m not *** following

i can’t life clearly doesn’t want me here so why am i still trying to stay

not that i could do anything about it lmao. 

why does life have some *** beef with me what did i do so terribly wrong to deserve this ***

and i’m supposed to be able to be positive through it all? *** no. 

it’s temporary it’s temporary it’s temporary haha doesn’t *** seem like it

i want to *** delete those memories they’re nothing but *** pain

i’m not supposed to be like this i used to be positive and motivated and happy now look at what it changed to with a blink of an eye

@justmeeva

*sits with my dear friend* 💙

lovely… yk… it’s okie to struggle… :’) it’s okay not to be okay. your eva, yes 💜 but your also human, my sweet friend. 🥺 as human beings, we aren’t perfect 💙 and we can’t be all happy and positive and motivated all the time. it’s okay not to be those things sometimes. 💜 i hope eva buddy bean will try to be kind to herself amid it all 🥺 mhm? we can try together lovely 💙 

ni friend loves you lots. 💜

why am i still trying?

@justmeeva tragedies are over rated :0 

*sits with eva* here for you...