Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
useless stupid disappointment eva.
there’s always a problem with me, i’m always either too restless or too tired, too emotional or too numb, too talkative or too quiet, too much or too little. never doing the right thing. ever.
the craziness and everything-seems-half-funny part is starting to go away. the deep dark thoughts are taking over. that’s not good. ***.
the dots are connecting a little too well tonight..
my mind’s empty but i have a million thoughts running through my head at the same time. i feel nothing and everything at the same time. i’m okay and horrible at the same time. it’s strange. it’s blurry. it’s confusing. i have to put so much effort and energy into just trying to figure out this mess. i don’t like it.
