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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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LoveMyMoonflowers February 2nd

@justmeeva

*hugs you if okie* there’s no need to be sorry, my sweet friend. 💜 how are you feeling now lovely? 🥺💙

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justmeeva OP February 2nd

@LoveMyMoonflowers

i’m okay, though we’ll see what the night will bring. *hugs tight 🩷*

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LoveMyMoonflowers February 2nd

@justmeeva

here for you 💜

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justmeeva OP February 2nd

@LoveMyMoonflowers

i’m very very thankful for you ni fren, i know i’m not easy to deal with when i’m like *this*. ik i don’t always show much gratitude, i might seem ignorant or rude, but it’s absolutely not ur fault. i really do appreciate you. 🩷🫂

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justmeeva OP February 2nd

@unassumingEyes

and you too eyes friend 🩷

LoveMyMoonflowers February 2nd

@justmeeva

awwe no no buddy your not ignorant or rude 🥺 not ever. me understand life isn’t easy for you :') it not easy for any of us 😞 life is hard and messy and sometimes we can be a bit messy too 💜 which is okie. 

i like to think of it like this. when evabuddybean is not okie :’) or okie, feeling happy, or feeling a bit off or depressed 💙 or feeling all kinds of emotions 🤧 you are still evabuddybean, your still you throughout it all. 🥺 your still you, and your still loved. my opinion of eva friend never changes 💜 even when she’s not doing so okie. me loves you always, my sweet friend 💙 *hugs you*

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justmeeva OP February 2nd

i’m so much unnecessary drama lol. 

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LoveMyMoonflowers February 2nd

@justmeeva

awwe no :') me don’t wish to invalidate your feelings lovely… but me has to disagree 💜 me don’t think your unnecessary drama 🥺 or that your being dramatic 💙 life is hard 💜 and we all have different struggles, different crazy thoughts that go through our heads :') different experiences 💙 life is messy. and beautiful too 💜 :') your not being dramatic at all 💙

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justmeeva OP February 2nd

awe you’re the best of the best ni fren. you’re so frickin sweet smh 🥺. ilysm /p 🩷 *hugss*

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LoveMyMoonflowers February 2nd

@justmeeva

*keeps hugging* you mean so much to me 💜 fr 💙 one of my bestest friends on cups 🥺 

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justmeeva OP February 2nd

@LoveMyMoonflowers

you too ni fren 🩷. i’m so happy i met you, and so happy to call you my friend. 💕🫂

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LoveMyMoonflowers February 2nd

@justmeeva

awwe 🥺 that means so much to me. and like fr 😭 *hugs* 💜 

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justmeeva OP February 2nd
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justmeeva OP February 2nd

it is now night so just ignore whatever crap i might write tonight. 

justmeeva OP February 2nd

“list two things that you did well in the last few days”

….. *literally can’t find a single thing after 10min of thinking*

justmeeva OP February 2nd

my glass would be all empty but my tears fill that one half. 

justmeeva OP February 2nd

“oh i guess that’s just the way things go.”

justmeeva OP February 2nd

your brain tells you what’s smart,

your heart tells you what’s right. 

justmeeva OP February 2nd

wanting attention and wanting to be noticed isn’t the same.