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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP February 1st

i always come back. until one day, i don’t. 

justmeeva OP February 1st

i don’t even think i want to meet any new people anymore. everyone’s gonna leave one day and i cant *** handle loss. 

justmeeva OP February 1st

i actually don’t know how much longer i can take this..

justmeeva OP February 1st

just when i thought it was getting better, i found myself back at the start. 

justmeeva OP February 1st

silly me thought i had already met the lowest i can be. i hadn’t.

justmeeva OP February 1st

“alone, again.”

justmeeva OP February 1st

never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough

justmeeva OP February 1st

i don’t have the strength to pretend i have strength anymore. 

justmeeva OP February 1st

it *** sucks when someone leaves without a warning and you have no idea if you’ll ever see them again

justmeeva OP February 1st

i don’t really give a *** about me anymore so honestly why would anyone else.