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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP February 3rd

just tell me what to *** do because if those are supposed to be some hints i’m not *** following

justmeeva OP February 3rd

i can’t life clearly doesn’t want me here so why am i still trying to stay

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justmeeva OP February 3rd

not that i could do anything about it lmao. 

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justmeeva OP February 3rd

why does life have some *** beef with me what did i do so terribly wrong to deserve this ***

justmeeva OP February 3rd

and i’m supposed to be able to be positive through it all? *** no. 

justmeeva OP February 3rd

it’s temporary it’s temporary it’s temporary haha doesn’t *** seem like it

justmeeva OP February 3rd

i want to *** delete those memories they’re nothing but *** pain

justmeeva OP February 3rd

i’m not supposed to be like this i used to be positive and motivated and happy now look at what it changed to with a blink of an eye

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LoveMyMoonflowers February 3rd

@justmeeva

*sits with my dear friend* 💙

lovely… yk… it’s okie to struggle… :’) it’s okay not to be okay. your eva, yes 💜 but your also human, my sweet friend. 🥺 as human beings, we aren’t perfect 💙 and we can’t be all happy and positive and motivated all the time. it’s okay not to be those things sometimes. 💜 i hope eva buddy bean will try to be kind to herself amid it all 🥺 mhm? we can try together lovely 💙 

ni friend loves you lots. 💜

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justmeeva OP February 3rd

why am i still trying?

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unassumingEyes February 3rd

@justmeeva tragedies are over rated :0 

*sits with eva* here for you...

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justmeeva OP February 3rd

@unassumingEyes

i’m sorry i don’t wanna make you feel bad but i’m not sure if there’s anything you can do (absolutely not your fault), i appreciate you being here though. i’m sorry. 

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unassumingEyes February 3rd

@justmeeva i kniw theres not much we can do...we're just kids trying to be enough 

I know I cant take the pain away so i wont make it worse by trying

But just bcz I cant stop you from hurting doesnt mean I should leave you to hurt alone <3 im here. It doesnt help much, but im here

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justmeeva OP February 3rd

numb but still in pain. isn’t that great. 

justmeeva OP February 3rd

starting to just accept everything.