Eva’s Crazy Mind

@mytwistedsoul 

yeah, maybe. when i find the courage to actually do anything towards it lol. but thank you ❤️

@justmeeva You've shown how incredibly brave you are by battling your demons alone 💙 but I do understand how saying it out loud to someone can be the most terrifying thing in the world   *sends peaceful good vibes*

@mytwistedsoul 

*accepts peaceful good vibes and sends some right back* thank you 💕

no no no gotta get this out of my head

like- right now. 

praying that music will save me soon enough

volume up

and now we wait. 

and hope. 

and breathe. 

and distract. 

i’m alone in the darkness now. anything can happen. will i let it? i don’t know. 

this time i managed to avoid it. but i wasn’t alone either. i wasn’t in the darkness. now, however..

@justmeeva

please try to be safe okay…? 💙 i know you can’t promise, and that’s okay, i understand. but please try okay? 💙 (no pressure to respond) 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

i will. 🩷

you too, please..

@justmeeva

i will. 💙 *hugs*

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

*hugs* 🩷

so far so.. fine. 

music’s keeping me from drowning rn. barely, but just enough. 

@justmeeva

same here… :')

but one wrong word.. one wrong reminder.. and we’re going down. 

gotta be careful. 

doing fine.. for now. 

walking on thin ice here.

breathe. 

funny how i’ve had to remind it to myself lately. 

“how can emptiness be so heavy?”

urges. 

i mean i already got a ton of *** and problems, what’s one more gonna change?

*sits with you if okay*

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

it’s always okay. 🩷

@justmeeva

keeping you in my thoughts. <3

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

you were in mine too <3

are. 

@justmeeva

💙💙💙

i’m trying but i don’t think it’s gonna be enough..

i might give sleep the chance to try and take me away before i try something. 

i don’t wanna break right now, not tonight, not again, not yet. 

is there anything me can do to help…? 😞💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

don’t worry about me, i know you have your own things to deal with. i’ll be fine. i love you. 🩷