Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
if i’m honest.. i can’t really see myself having a future.. “making it”, “surviving”, “getting through it”.. i’m not even sure if it’s a part of my nonexistent future plans..
the entire time we talked, me and my mom, i wanted to show her something that would’ve silenced her. i didn’t. i think it’s good tho. i think.
“she wanted to heal everyone around her. she saw potential in them, she had hope for them, she believed in them. truly. she saw the good in them, the pain, their hearts. many broken, but still there. she wasn’t really a person to be fair, more like an angel, trying to protect and keep her people.”
tw?
every time i close my eyes, my brain makes me imagine something terrifying. there went the idea of trying to sleep. oh *** well.