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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP March 28th

today at school, this whole time i wanted to go to someone and say i need help. all those opportunities passed, and i did nothing. nobody noticed. nobody asked. i didn’t say anything but i wasn’t exactly my brightest self either. on purpose. but it doesn’t matter now. oh well. 

justmeeva OP March 28th

ohh and all the times i’ve thought about putting a note to my mom’s handbag saying “i want to talk to someone”.

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justmeeva OP March 28th
a little context, my mom and i had a talk quite long ago now and she said that if i had to talk to someone (professional), she could make it happen if i wanted to. 
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mytwistedsoul March 28th

@justmeeva  Hey :) I think it might be a good idea. I think it's great that she's open to the idea of you talking to someone professional. If it helps you - you know? It's worth a try - you're worth trying it. Sorry just had to add my opinion in here lol 😅

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justmeeva OP March 28th

@mytwistedsoul 

yeah, maybe. when i find the courage to actually do anything towards it lol. but thank you ❤️

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mytwistedsoul March 28th

@justmeeva You've shown how incredibly brave you are by battling your demons alone 💙 but I do understand how saying it out loud to someone can be the most terrifying thing in the world   *sends peaceful good vibes*

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justmeeva OP March 28th

no no no gotta get this out of my head

justmeeva OP March 28th

like- right now. 

justmeeva OP March 28th

praying that music will save me soon enough

justmeeva OP March 28th

volume up

justmeeva OP March 28th

and now we wait. 

justmeeva OP March 28th

and hope. 

justmeeva OP March 28th

and breathe. 

justmeeva OP March 28th

and distract.