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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP March 29th

whichhh.. triggered some memories that i now have to get out of my head. 

justmeeva OP March 29th

and fast. 

justmeeva OP March 29th

“she was so broken that even darkness felt bad and went to comfort her. now it’s all she really has. people come and go, but darkness is always there, somewhere. all the worst times they’ve passed together. only darkness really knows what she’s really going through.”

justmeeva OP March 29th

i uh.. i might take a look at some memories again. which.. are going to trigger flashbacks.. and we know what those mean for me. 

justmeeva OP March 29th

no promises.. on anything.

justmeeva OP March 30th

i didn’t do anything that night (kinda surprised-), but now i remember. everything. i know that one night they’ll come to me. and then i might. then i will. 

justmeeva OP March 30th

it was a bad idea, but i knew it would be. and at this point.. it doesn’t matter. who cares? i’m already *** up and will never not be, so it doesn’t matter. who cares?

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LoveMyMoonflowers March 30th

@justmeeva

i care. 💙

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justmeeva OP March 30th

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

❤️

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LoveMyMoonflowers March 30th

@justmeeva

💙 i’m sorry

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justmeeva OP March 30th

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

you didn’t do anything wrong, it’s okay 🩷 thank you for caring. 🩷

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LoveMyMoonflowers March 30th

@justmeeva

okay 💙 

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justmeeva OP March 30th

gotta fake that smile all day today. can’t let them know. 

justmeeva OP March 30th

but i’ll take it with me.

justmeeva OP March 30th

tw. 


today’s mood is.. death.