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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP March 31st

i have a little idea to somehow try to ask for mental help in school again tomorrow but let’s be honest, how likely is it actually gonna happen

justmeeva OP March 31st

that one song playing over and over in my head rn

justmeeva OP March 31st

it’s so real tho 

justmeeva OP March 31st

why is it “insane” not “unsane” or “desane”

justmeeva OP March 31st

tw? idk

i’ve “dreamt” of trying to scream into a pillow for so long now but i never get the chance i’m always either not alone or not in the suitable mood and state (it has to have meaning yk)

justmeeva OP March 31st

“ew, look, me” lol

justmeeva OP March 31st

let’s start with the 3 big long homework assignments now shall we? :D

justmeeva OP March 31st

i’m so tired lol. it’s nearly 1am now. 1/3 assignments done. hopefully the other 2 won’t take an hour each. 

justmeeva OP March 31st

luckily (?) tiredness is a funny thing that goes away if you stay up long enough, which.. is a few more hours for me. hm. 

justmeeva OP March 31st

and unfortunately the assignments aren’t very skippable - one’s for a test and the other is something that was already delayed (was supposed to be done by last thursday, new due date is tomorrow.) so.. the consequences are too big to leave them undone.