@justmeeva
yk… i think it’s ok to feel like our lights are gone. i think it’s ok to feel like they have dimmed :') or to feel like… we don’t feel like shining right now. it’s okay to feel these things. it’s human. 💙 it’s real, it’s valid, it’s okay. 💙
it’s okay to sit in the dark sometimes. but i know that oftentimes sitting in the dark is a lonely experience. :') we may be in the darkness and feel comfy in the dark but it’s also so lonely sometimes isn’t it? :') it feels cold. 💙
eva beanie… when you’re not okie… friend, you are still you. and me knows sometimes we feel like, maybe not been sometimes, maybe it’s most of the time or all the time - but we might feel like we don’t even know who we are. it’s confusing. :') “who are you…” that can be such a confusing, strange, alien question. like… what does that even mean. :')
but me thinks, not okie-eva beanie, okie-eva beanie, pretending-to-be-okie eva beanie, depressed-eva beanie, overwhelmed eva-beanie… even when the world is too much, and things in your life, everything seems wrong and crazy and messy and it’s just too much… 😞 even when you don’t feel that light in you anymore, when you don’t see it… that doesn’t mean it isn’t there anymore. :') i see it, eva beanie, and i feel it, always. even when i read the posts in your diary thread and i see that, life is indeed hard, and you’ve been hurting and you’ve been struggling, even amid it all, i know that eva beanie’s light is still there. 💙 some days, it may be shining brightly. but other days, it may be hiding and that’s okay. 💙 even the stars aren’t *always* peeking through the sky and shining their light. sometimes they hide too. sometimes our light hides and we just want to sit in the dark because it’s a little more familiar and a little comfier :') and that’s okay. *sits with you* 💙
i’m not sure if my words made any sense at all, but… yeah. :') 💙