Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami because you couldn't get to town, so you have good in the house you can eat?? I know sometimes when your tired and in pain, you just can't bring yourself to eat. But you do need to keep up your strength
❤️❤️ I have some food here for a little while yet❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami so you know how to get a grocery delivery if you need it?
There is no delivery to my area
@Iamwhoiamwhoami damn! Ok what about the doctor looking into a social worker to help with your needs
Maybe I will check into that next week. ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami please do, you need help right now ❤ I know you don't like it, but hopefully it will only be for a little bit, till you get back on your feet ❤ you can do this ❤
I will try and figure out something.. ❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm not sure what services they do or can offer😕 I'm not much help with stuff like this, I just worry about you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
❤️ I appreciate your ideas. Thank you.❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami ❤❤ i worry my questions and suggestions might seem as nagging or ordering/bossing you around. But I'm not, and you can just tell me to shut up at any time😁 I really just do worry about my special friend ❤
I am fine with your suggestions and questions. No worries. ❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami good morning ❤ hope you managed to get some sleep last night ❤
same as usual, off and on. ❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I bet you can't wait to hear of the surgeon, the wait is just always so hard😥 hugs you tightly ❤ hopefully you will hear now in the next few days🙂
I got to have the injection in my spine today. I can't wait, although I always get a bit nervous. But cause of the pain levels, since towards the end of July I've been stuck in a electric wheelchair. I prefer the manual, it keeps me moving and gives me a bit of independence. So hopefully by tomorrow I'll be back in the manual wheelchair😁❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hopefully you get back in the manual chair. ❤️❤️hugs you as well ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm playing with my 3 little pigs 😁 they help me keep calm😁❤
How are you managing mentally?
They are lucky to have you. Same old, same old. ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami did you have any toys growing up?? What was your favourite?
@Tinywhisper11
I’m sorry, I don’t remember much about my childhood. What I do doesn’t involve positive things.❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami oh of course sorry ❤❤ I wasn't thinking. I'll check in on you in a bit ❤ hopefully you will get some news today ❤
Laying here as usual, everything still in a fog
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hi sweetie ❤ I'm sorry your struggling so bad, it's not nice, bless you 🙁 gives you a huge hug ❤❤
Just heard from the pain management referral and the earliest appointment is October 23rd. Still nothing from neurosurgery.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami the end of october!?!!😮 damn! How do they expect you to survive that long🙁 that's not great news😥 I'm sorry sweetie
@Tinywhisper11
Hopefully neurosurgeon appointment will be a lot sooner. Otherwise I will have to figure out something for mobility. . Wheelchair room in my home is extremely limited . Plus I couldn’t roll myself without excruciating pain. A walker? I don’t know..,
it is what it is…
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@Iamwhoiamwhoami a walker is worth a shot if you lean on it hard enough it might take some of the pressure of your back and legs. Electric wheelchair you'll need, but if your house isn't adapted I don't know either😕 it's just so terrible to know you have to work theese things out alone😥 let's pray the neurosurgeon is a lot sooner.
Dogs and sleigh😁 just joking😁❤
Dogs and sleigh, I would consider if it weren’t for the fact they wouldn’t come near me because I would probably keep running over their tails with the chair. ❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami 😂😂 yeah it wasn't a great suggestion ❤ I really hope your doctor, steps in and helps you. I know you let him in mentally and emotionally. But other than y your physical problems your facing, does he know about the situation you live in at all?
Yes they know. I have a phone appointment with the social services office at my doctors office Wednesday.
My doctor I think doubted the validity of my pain . She is frustrated with me in regards to the depression and other issues because I refuse to go back to any psychiatrist or counseling due to the excessive amount of people I have seen over the years and the fact it always hits the wall and fizzles out.
I think now that the MRI has shown that the pain is very real she is a little less frazzled with me.
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@Iamwhoiamwhoami it's not nice to think the doctor didn't quite believe you were in pain😥 and therapists and meds, are a personal choice. Many people don't want to do either and they should respect that choice. But I guess everyone thinks differently. I'm glad social services are involved, it might seem all a bit scary for you, but they are really nice, and can offer so much. I'm glad your doctor seems more on board with things now ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
I read your writing questioning when your life begins, I understand where you’re coming from . As far as I am concerned you are living everyday that you come to this community and share your strength and love. ❤️ ❤️❤️Hugs you snugly ❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami awww snugly hugs ❤thankyou ❤ yesterday was a long day I guess, lots of anxiety, then depression kicked in. But your right, I have everything I could ever of wanted, and I have a good life here ❤ and friends like you that make me happy, and thankful ❤ hugs you tightly ❤I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 how are you today? Are you upset about the pain management thing?
Same as every other day I suppose. Still overwhelmed. Issues still on high. If I can figure out how to get pain meds picked up and if they work, that will have to do. More frustrated than upset. ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami does your chemist do delivery services? Might be worth asking. They do that here. Frustrated and overwhelmed is exactly what I would be feeling to🙁 hugs you tightly ❤
they do through the mail for some. If I lived near them there is a possibility of that. But controlled substances have to be picked up. ❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami 🙁 oh, perhaps social services can help you with that. Sorry for the late reply. Hugs you tightly ❤
