Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami good luck with your phone call ❤❤
Well, social services was absolutely no help. No transportation, nothing to assist with getting meds that can’t be mailed. Advocate for myself….what’s the point?
@Iamwhoiamwhoami ohhhh!😥😥 that's just ridiculous😞 I'm so sorry
Exactly why I try and avoid hoping for anything. I will be disappointed every time. I don’t want to deal with any of this anymore.
Laying here rocking back and forth trying to find a reason to go on. I ask for help and get no help. I have gotten no response from my doctor regarding wheelchair/walker help. Called a medical store and they need prescription from doctor for them.
I ended up going to another online place and ordered a wheelchair and a rollator…walker with wheels and brakes?.?.
I honestly and truly can’t do this anymore.
How much more will be piled on? I am barely functioning. I can’t handle what I am struggling with now, add anything more and I will not be functioning at all.
I’m suffocating under this mountain, I feel like I’m being targeted for my failures. Either way I am in the pit of my own creation.
Everything is out of focus. I am laying here rocking back and forth and trembling. Can’t seem to find any reason to continue. There are none. I’m beginning to believe that continuing to “find the strength “ is a complete waste of time and energy. All this based on the lie that it will get better.
my reality is it never gets better just worse.
Previously, no matter how bad things got I was at the minimum able to rely on myself to handle the basics. Now that has been stripped away from me, I can’t rely on myself and the relying on others,surely is not an option for me.
