Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hi sweetie ❤❤ I hope the pre-op went well ❤ just a little longer to wait now ❤ hugs you tightly ❤❤
It snowed here two days ago😁 it snowed on and off all day 😁, I was watching it from the window ❤ I love snow it's so beautiful so magical ❤ I'm still stuck in hospital 🙁 but I'm sure I won't be here much longer ❤ I hope your ok, or at least ok'ish. I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
To preop appointment OK I guess for what it was. Answer some questions, give him some more blood, they analyze it.
It rained and snowed here for the last day and a half.
Hopefully you are starting to see some improvements after this surgery, possibly some hope that accomplish something positive for you.
❤️❤️ hugging you snuggly, I love you too❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm glad everything went ok ❤ is everything sorted out for your trip to and back from the hospital? Any aftercare sorted out at all??
It snowed for you too 😁 I hope your keeping warm ❤ I'm recovering ok ❤
@Tinywhisper11 oops! I forgot your hug ❤
I was trying to figure out what to put here for an update and realized that to keep to the truth of my thoughts I can't put anything down here because it is embroiled in the darkest of darkness. The types of thoughts that I am not allowed to place here. That is what is interwoven in the blanket that surrounds me. Almost suffocating at times. So I apologize that is as good as it's gonna get for a while regarding my ramblings.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
That is quite alright, I understand❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami good morning sweetie ❤ don't be sorry for not writing here, this is your place for when your ready ❤ I hope after the operation, we can take that suffocating blanket off you, and you can start to heal from all this ❤ pain makes you want to quit sometimes especially mixed in with mental pains. You've made it this far and I'm so proud of you, just a little bit longer ok?
I've been getting the feeling back in my upper left body, the painful tingling feelings are coming more frequently, and are becoming less painful on times ❤ so that's great news🙂 hopefully I will be out of hospital soon ❤❤
hugs you tightly ❤❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hi sweetie ❤ I was able to move my left hand into a fist today😁😁😁 I'm getting better😁😁😁 yaaaay! I was so excited ❤
I'm still stuck here in hospital, listening to xmas songs, thinking about you ❤ I know your mind and body are in the darkest places right now, I wish I could light a candle to guide you through ❤ just know you are loved here, I love you ❤