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One thing I am feeling sad about today is....

Laura December 2nd, 2018

One thing I am feeling sad about today is....

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LMorningstar April 9th, 2019

..The fact I am gonna end up hurting someone I truly like and don't wish to..... all because I just wanna keep her safe and can't fight my own logic.. I don't get sad.. this just is a fact.... All I wanna do is make my Lieutenant happy..... to protect her..... and all I seem to do is make it worse..... Fighting my inner voice or logic when it's twisted..... I can't risk her....

She never says I make it worse..... all she wants to do is help.... and all I end up doing is thinking of my gut... it's factual stupidity..... And yet I cannot even argue with myself without failing..... they say to beat intrusive thoughts and such matters you surrender to them and accept them..... shrakh. It does nothing except worsen the rest..... Ironically she never thinks the worst of me..... only time I even remotely upset her is when I try to protect her or distance myself.....

I don't wanna upset her and she doesn't wanna lose me or I her..... she's the first person in years I have even allowed or just randomly managed to get in..... not including my maternal parent..... Suppression is a better idea..... when I class things as they don't matter, only person who has to endure is me..... same old same old.

bgdave April 9th, 2019

Not being able to see my therapist all week.

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Kyndryl April 9th, 2019

@bgdave I understand. Especially, when sometimes because if financial reasons you can't go as often as you like.

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bgdave April 10th, 2019

@Kyndryl it is actually due to her not being available due to family issues which I understand but I still really need to do more therapy due to the loss of my father last month on the 11th. I am fortunate my workplace employee assistance program is providing me 8 counseling sessions.

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Roberto112 April 10th, 2019

Had enormous stress and depression problems when I was a smoker. Found info about the connection between it and smoking https://vapingdaily.com/support/tobacco-use-and-mental-health/. All the symptoms had gone after 3 weeks of cold turkey.
I hope you will find the right decision for your depression. Don`t forget to visit the doctor!

bgdave April 11th, 2019

I have a hard time feeling like I am loved. I guess perhaps I just feel like I need more reassurance. I don

generousWatermelon6496 April 11th, 2019

Scared about ageing

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OceanRest April 11th, 2019

@generousWatermelon6496 - Getting older can be very scary and often people experience a sense of loss and grief over the things they can't do any more or don't have any more. Would you like to share more about what is scaring you? Have you found our 35+ and 50+ subcommunities here on 7 Cups?

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mytwistedsoul April 11th, 2019

everything, I'm tired of feeling like a failure at everything

bgdave April 11th, 2019

Not being able to help a friend who is a disabled veteran and was served with a 7 day eviction notice today by the Sheriff and he has nowhere to go. 😔

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OceanRest April 14th, 2019

@bgdave - That is terrible. Would make me sad too.

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peachKitten5883 April 12th, 2019

Me getting raped by my father and my cousins father

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bgdave April 12th, 2019

@peachKitten5883 I am so sorry you have been treated this way. I can

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peachKitten5883 April 12th, 2019

@bgdave

Is it wrong for me to think that people should commit suicide ..? I

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bgdave April 12th, 2019

@peachKitten5883 I was sick once and thought about and was going to do it I had hit rock bottom. But fortunately a higher power did not let me go through with it. It is not the answer.....

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peachKitten5883 April 12th, 2019

@bgdave

I honestly don

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kindheartedSummer97 April 13th, 2019

@peachKitten5883 I am so sorry for what it happened to you but don

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lycan9826 April 13th, 2019

While I'm glad to know for sure that I have not disappointed my family, wish I could say the same about my 2 best friends :(

Wish they weren't shunning me:(

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OceanRest April 14th, 2019

@lycan9826 - I'm sorry to hear about your friends. Is there anything you can do about the situation?

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turtlenie April 13th, 2019

I feel worthless compared to everyone else. I don't have a car or phone, I live with my parents, and my manager gets on my case for being too slow at work.

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OceanRest April 14th, 2019

@turtlenie - It's hard when we compare ourselves to others and feel like less or like we don't have what we would also like to have. I'm sorry that you are feeling like this.

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