One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
..The fact I am gonna end up hurting someone I truly like and don't wish to..... all because I just wanna keep her safe and can't fight my own logic.. I don't get sad.. this just is a fact.... All I wanna do is make my Lieutenant happy..... to protect her..... and all I seem to do is make it worse..... Fighting my inner voice or logic when it's twisted..... I can't risk her....
She never says I make it worse..... all she wants to do is help.... and all I end up doing is thinking of my gut... it's factual stupidity..... And yet I cannot even argue with myself without failing..... they say to beat intrusive thoughts and such matters you surrender to them and accept them..... shrakh. It does nothing except worsen the rest..... Ironically she never thinks the worst of me..... only time I even remotely upset her is when I try to protect her or distance myself.....
I don't wanna upset her and she doesn't wanna lose me or I her..... she's the first person in years I have even allowed or just randomly managed to get in..... not including my maternal parent..... Suppression is a better idea..... when I class things as they don't matter, only person who has to endure is me..... same old same old.
Not being able to see my therapist all week.
@bgdave I understand. Especially, when sometimes because if financial reasons you can't go as often as you like.
@Kyndryl it is actually due to her not being available due to family issues which I understand but I still really need to do more therapy due to the loss of my father last month on the 11th. I am fortunate my workplace employee assistance program is providing me 8 counseling sessions.
Had enormous stress and depression problems when I was a smoker. Found info about the connection between it and smoking https://vapingdaily.com/support/tobacco-use-and-mental-health/. All the symptoms had gone after 3 weeks of cold turkey.
I hope you will find the right decision for your depression. Don`t forget to visit the doctor!
I have a hard time feeling like I am loved. I guess perhaps I just feel like I need more reassurance. I don
Scared about ageing
@generousWatermelon6496 - Getting older can be very scary and often people experience a sense of loss and grief over the things they can't do any more or don't have any more. Would you like to share more about what is scaring you? Have you found our 35+ and 50+ subcommunities here on 7 Cups?
everything, I'm tired of feeling like a failure at everything
Not being able to help a friend who is a disabled veteran and was served with a 7 day eviction notice today by the Sheriff and he has nowhere to go. 😔
@bgdave - That is terrible. Would make me sad too.
Me getting raped by my father and my cousins father
@peachKitten5883 I am so sorry you have been treated this way. I can
@bgdave
Is it wrong for me to think that people should commit suicide ..? I
@peachKitten5883 I was sick once and thought about and was going to do it I had hit rock bottom. But fortunately a higher power did not let me go through with it. It is not the answer.....
While I'm glad to know for sure that I have not disappointed my family, wish I could say the same about my 2 best friends :(
Wish they weren't shunning me:(
@lycan9826 - I'm sorry to hear about your friends. Is there anything you can do about the situation?
I feel worthless compared to everyone else. I don't have a car or phone, I live with my parents, and my manager gets on my case for being too slow at work.
@turtlenie - It's hard when we compare ourselves to others and feel like less or like we don't have what we would also like to have. I'm sorry that you are feeling like this.
