Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Sad, stupid. I don't understand trig. I can't tell my friends my secret sh and depression. I have no one to hug me. It hurts to breathe. I just wanna cry, to hug some one. Biting sit hear behind a smile and silence. Wishing someone would care
Nothing like letting yourself get close to someone only to have them make you feel like you're worthless and not worth their time at all. I really wish I could just stop existing.
School makes me feel so stupid and worthless like what am I even doing
I feel like I don't really matter to anyone. Like I'm just background noise to everyone I know and love. I'm not in danger of hurting myself, but I really do feel like if I were to die today, people would be sad for like a month at most then largely get over it. People barely notice me when I'm in the room, so I strongly doubt anyone misses me when I'm gone.
And I know it's my own doing which is probably the worst part of all. I'm so afraid of disappointing people that I don't know how tone close to them.
Heya hun,are u at a young age?if u are that's very common to feel like that.wen I was in hgh school I was not as pretty as the other girls and coz I'm half Asian half greekI got teased a lot and not accepted in the "cool" groups,they would chat with me in class but wen it came to lunch period they wouldn't say a word to me.it all changed wenbi changed high schools and the minority we're Asians and greeks,they thought I was beautiful so i started to rebel and only care of the friends I made and reputation I was finally in the "cool"group,even guys from my old school would see me and couldn't believe my transformation to my looks but my personality,I started to become very loud so I would get noticed I also started to get in trouble just so I could have a "cool" rep.my point is,the more u care what people are thinking bout u the more u will be a people pleaser or drive yourself nuts.the day I didn't care what others thought has been the happiest.if u need a friend my name is Lisa.x
That's very sweet of you to say, but I'm not a teenager so my problem runs a bit deeper than that. I'm 30 and have no real close relationships. Even the people I would consider myself close to, I keep a lot of my feelings from because I don't think they would really care all that much because they have their own lives to worry about. I've worked so hard trying to get through college then trying to find a job (which I still haven't done and I know that is also making me feel inadequate) that I never cultivated myself socially and don't know how I would even start. I can't imagine many people would want to deal with a 30-year-old ever-child that's still dealing with teen level social angst.
I can interact with people, my coworkers generally like me, but no one asks me if I want to go out. No one gives me their number or asks for mine. The friends I do have are people I've known since I was young and have their own lives to worry about. I'm single and haven't been on a date in almost 10 years. I just don't know how to connect with people in a meaningful way.
Mentally exhausted
I feel happy, healthy, and lucky
Having a lot of mixed emotions...some days I think about all the things I wanna accomplish but others I'm too depressed to believe I'll actually do anything with my life. Like my existence is irrelevant.
Like it's never going to get better
@depressedaf19 Here's something that might cheer you up
Well today, this morning i found out where my ex boyfriend is. Bedridden until further notice. he wont be returning to school anytime this year. I feel like total sh*t cause i acted before i knew what was going on...but at the same time i was holding on to nothing..
i miss him so much
Earlier- Defeated
Now- Lighter
