Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I don't know why I keep trying.
I feel ugly lonely sad angry hurt invisible unappreciated and lost
im so lost. i have no one to talk about my depression. i feel so hopeless till i barely can feel anything now. i feel no love, happiness, sadness, pain. its just so empty. sometimes im afraid that'll lead me to suicide. everything just seems so wrong. i stayed at home whole day just to avoid meeting my friends even though i was the one who make plans. i make plans, but i dont want to go. bcs i know that i will only feel a temporary feeling of "togetherness". i just dont know. i dont understand what i feel right now.
I too feel hopeless today. But its not like I always feel this way. Many times I am confident about myself.But thts just a layer on top of a deep valley of sadness.
Overwhelmed. Just when I think I'm doing better something comes around and puts the good memories back in my head. I can't catch a break..
I am fine... I am fine... I just don't want to deal with human things. Or existing.
Well...I feel lost.
The guy I had a crush on in the second grade reentered my life again..don't know how long he will stay..but I doubt it'll be long.
Saturday..I was just minding my business and he just showed up. I was confused..but I smiled it off and tried not to look at him. There was a desk between us..until he moved cause he needed help with his math.
The second class he would just look at me..and it kinda made me a little uncomfortable.. But I didn't think too much of it. I asked him what he wanted..this time he just said "nothing" and smiled at me.
Our third class he sat behind me. He'd wanted me to hold his hand since the second class.. But never said anything..I jokingly said it and he was sincere. In this class I let him..but it was brief. I asked him for a hug numerous times..but he wouldn't give me one. He was following me around all day. I am usually first to leave..and apparently I moved too fast for him. It's a habit.
Anyway.. He brought up the kiss I gave him on his cheek in the second grade.. And it's been 2 years since I told him that.. After almost 10 years he is still attracted to me.. But I don't know how to feel.
I'm okay, not feeling much really. Just kinda blank.
i feel so low with anxiety. i find it difficult to find joy in my work. i am preoccupied with the fear regarding my safety and my residents' safety. im a nurse. we have an issue with staffing. im binded with a contract for 3 yrs so i feel like im a slave, left with no choice. i feel regrets. i feel im excluded and neglected.
@paulleern
ive been in a similar situation. Although the bonuses are tempting, I now avoid signing contracts. Once they have you the feeling is stifling. But you'll get thru-it won't be forever.
Thanks easy water. The thought of being like this for 3yrs causing too much pain on me.
I don't know what to feel anymore. My depressed emotions are constantly getting in the way of my thinking, my actions, and my words. Everything I do revolves around me depression and anxiety. I can't take it any more. I got invited to a party and almost didn't go because I didn't know if my depression was going to act up. I'm trying to find ways of keeping my head clear: getting a charm to keep me grounded, a special stuff animals, a lucky pen, something to help me..
I'm so torn and I don't want my friends to worry about me. My friend got drunk for Halloween and blurted out to my group of friends (hysterically crying might I add) that I wanted to commit suicide and die. After she did this, some of my friends looked at me funny. My depression is ruling (and ruining) my life.
