Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I talked to my counselor today, and i felt good, but i still feel no one cares about me, and i have so many thoughts that i have to cut all the time
...Now I'm feeling down...missing a short lasting friend badly...now we are not in touch just becoz of bad luck...huh..!!!
I feel really anxious but I don't know why
Crying with stress over my exams next week
Things are only getting worse. I've talked my problems over many times and nothing changes. I get worse every single year. I don't want to live, but I don't want to die either...
I'm really disappointed and ashamed in myself because I failed a test so badly and I lost my 4.0 GPA because of it
@thehoodlum Don't be disappointed in yourself! Having a GPA even close to a 4.0 is something I totally wish I could have, but huuuge props to you for accomplishing that! It shows how much you really strive to do well in school. I think in life, there's also the ability to show your character, which goes beyond your GPA. I'm also going through the exact same situation with trying to keep my grades up to apply for colleges, and it's hard and sometimes it doesn't always result the way you want it to, but the best thing you can do is constantly remind yourself that you really are working hard and that you have a really high GPA!!
I really feel like crying, screaming, and having a total breakdown. But I can't.
Same here, can't let it show but it's brewing inside.
"My hands are cold, my grip is failing.
Too much longer and I will fall."
I often dream of us together, and for a short while, I am free. And every time I wake, I'm left with an empty void within myself. I've waited so long for your arrival. It's been years since I first saw you; Don't you miss us being together? I'm still waiting. Always waiting.. No one's coming to share my pain. I am here and all alone. One last time I'll play our song; I just wish you'd sing along.
"Are you coming now to save me,
or do I have to save myself?"
Well I'm at the point where anyday now I ready to be done with life as each day goes bye I think aboult dieing every im just not good anuf for anyone anymore im geting where I can't take it any more im geting where I don't care aboult nothing anymore don't care what happens don't care what goes on arould me on a scale of one 1-5.....1 being ok and 5 being death im at 4 can't get nothing to go right for me anymore just don't know what to do just started my meds but they told me it would take a mouth and a half just to see a Chang in my me just don't know if I'm going to make it safe. Has a hold of me and he is dranging me down fast he must realy won't me hmmm
Moving on is hard. So yeah, I'm still hurt. I woke up this morning and he was the first thing on my mind...I tried to make it go away..and ultimately failed. Yes. I miss him...but there's nothing I can do. Yes. I still have feelings for him..but I can't do anything with them. I will have to devote myself to my arts and writing just to make myself feel a little better. One of my friends wanted me to hold on...we were honestly the cutest couple ever..but I held on for about 18 days before ending it.. so.. Yeah.. I'm just really hurt.. Heartbroken really
@lovingPine3496
i know it sounds like such a cliché but time really does help, eventually it won't feel so hard.
Distraction helps too. Perhaps another fish in the sea to keep you company? Whenever your ready of course.
you will survive this, I know it feels brutal right now. I had a break up once and it consumed me everyday for about a year-absolute torture. It eventually faded and the best thing I did was remove myself so I wouldn't see that person around. Good luck and sorry your hurting.
@easyWater4109 this, i thought was a person who was genuinely interested in me. i don't think there are any other fish in the sea for me. i mean honestly who would want a self loathing ball of erratic emotion?
@lovingPine3496
you have your whole life ahead of you. Believe it or not this heartbreak is part of your journey. You are dating to get to know people and learn about what you may want one day for a life partner. Don't let this ego blow keep you down. Keep your head up and keep going.