Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel really guilty. I haven't been to school in 4 days (last week I missed 3 days in a row, too) because my depression just makes it so difficult for me to get up in the morning. I'm also a little proud though because I've been taking my meds lately :D

I'm feeling pretty down, misunderstood, confused, and useless. I put on a strong face at work but I feel like I'm a bad worker when I try so hard to be a good one. It seems like there is always something wrong with the way I do things and I don't want to keep making mistakes. I had a nightmare about work today and it's hard falling back asleep. My sleep schedule has been thrown off and I can't seem to get a full night. I feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try something always happens. Maybe I'm just not as good at what I do as much as I thought I was. Maybe I'm not the person I thought I was. Well so much for confidence.

I know this is probably not as depressing or some may not think it's as important as others, but I lost my dog 2 days ago and I haven't been able to stop crying. I somewhat feel guilty because unfortunately I took him to a vet which did a horrible job and I lost him in a week after they treated him. I feel like I didn't have enough time with him (8yrs) and I just wasn't ready to say goodbye..I can't get a good sleep for more than 10mins, I cant walk past his area where he used to sleep without bursting into tears and sometimes I think this is just a dream where I cant wake up from. :'(

Same as most days... I really don't want to live anymore but I'm scared of taking my own life, so I'm stuck in this never ending suffering. I always pray to just die in my sleep, to not wake up to another day of pain and misery. I think I'm not meant to be alive, I get extremely depressed and hurt over the smallest things so I'm never happy, and I don't remember the last time I was.

I just feel empty and I have no way of explaining that to friends and family.

Tired

sad , tired , don't really wanna leave bed but I'm gonna have to eventually

I feel a little better but it still pains me. I keep finding little things I made for him..or that I was planning to give him..and it always brings me down. I miss him so much. I'm so confused about everything now...not just with him..but this other horrible guy from school. I just wish I could go away for a while..

I don't feel anything :( hicbirsey hissetmiyorum.

Today I'm feeling a bit better, as much as the night has been troubled for me, this app is helping me a lot, because I can't talk about this with anyone else outside of here.