Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel sick. Haven't slept at night for three or for days. My body aches all over and my brain's not functioning well. I feel like a failure to my parents because im not doing anything with my life and not feel like doing anything with my life. I feel lonely too. When I told my friends I have depression I don't think they understand that this is an illness, one of them said they don't relieve in depression. I'm having a rough time.
Not good tonight. Had a few good days last week just to be slammed by a very very rough week. I wish my mind wouldn't give me false hope of things getting better like that.
Been feeling mostly ok for a while now, but the sound of my roommate having a very loud fling in the next room over triggered an immense feeling of shame, sadness and "not belonging" given that I'm 25 years old and the only virgin among my friends.
I just feel unimportant. Last night I had a horrible headache. I am guessing I slept for a few hours...I honestly don't know. I found some Advil and got myself some water..it was about 10:30pm. I was planning on going to bed right after...but didn't really want to. Luckily one of my friends messaged me and needed my help. She claims I do actually help..and that I was there for her..but I'm only 16..she's a college student..I feel that what I say shouldn't be taken to heart because... What do I know?
Completely shitty. My grandfathers just died.. My siblings and mother didn't care about him when he was alive, and now they decide they care... No one cares until you're dead.
Today seemed to drag on a bit, but it worked out. Suicidal thoughts and mood didn't come out to play, so that was nice.
Pathetic.. I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday and I told them about everything..or some things that I went through from 6th grade up to now. I reflected heavily on it when I got home..crying and such. Today I was a struggle getting out of bed..I had no motivation..but my mom made me get up. There is no school tomorrow, for veteran's day, so we get s little break outta the week..I just remembered I didn't eat last night. I was so upset..
Ugh..I'm sorry
Lonely.
Better than yesterday, but that doesn't really say much. At the very least I was able to make it to school today.
I feel like I'm stuck in a snow globe.