Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I just feel like I canot breath like someones siting on my lungs I just feel so tired of everything

I'm tired. Tired of trying and not getting any results. Tired of struggling. Tired of not knowing how to handle these feelings. It feels like I'm trying to crawl my through a tight dark tunnel and I can't see the light at the end.

Feel a little bit better than usual. Caught a cold, but got a lot of rest over the weekend and I feel like I'm about to get over it. Had a lot of stress this past week and I almost reached my breaking point, so I'm glad I managed to survive.

Though I am worried that I'm moving into a manic episode... Really hope I'm not, but it seems like it.

I feel the worst uncomfortable feeling running through my veins. I feel my heart getting heavier and harder to carry around with me. I feel people leaving and ignoring me. I feel a very long distance between me and those I used to be close with. I feel my eyes burning and ready to cry but they can't. I feel numb to other peoples feelings. I feel my thighs stinging and the heat overwhelming me pushing me to stay inside. I feel myself ready to break down again.

Useless - nothing matters - I just wish I could blink and not be here anymore - but wouldn't want to hurt others by that act - I just stay in day after day - avoiding people who try to help me and care for me 😔

I've had enough its like I'm falling off a cliff and I'm seconds from hitting the ground and theres nothing i can do to stop it and the sad thing is I dont know if i want to x

I feel pathetic, weak and disgusting and I want to hurt myself. It's all my fault for being a weak human being. I keep telling myself I'm over it and I'm not; I just keep repeating the same lies to myself hoping they'll come true one day.

I hate everything my family school friends my life I just wish I could snap and kill everyone and everything already I fcking hate everything and its all my abusive moms fault. FCK her I'm going to cut again

Well, yesterday I came to the assumption that I physically can't cry... So there's that... And not being able to cry hasn't relieved any of the stress I've had for a while

I feel disillusioned, like a huge fool. I'm just filled with disgust and anger at myself, to the point where I wanna tear myself apart.

Everybody should just get away from me and leave me alone cause they disgust me too. They act like they care and then turn around and act condescendingly towards you. You think you can trust them until they end up disappointing you with their behavior. And you know what, maybe I want to be alone for the rest of my life. That way nobody can hurt me or be cruel to me ever again. Why should I keep caring about others when time and time again its only brought me more pain?

I'm done.