Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel the sick sensation that I screwed up...again. That I cannot and will not and should not be loved and that I should just die & rid society of the disgrace that is me.

I feel many different things. My anxiety is out of control. I want to be happy so bad and I'm trying hard to stay positive but it's hard sometimes.

Today I feel like I am done. Everyday I struggle to tell myself that I need to live for others. I want to be selfish though and end it. I hate being selfish but idk if I can handle living anymore. I love my family and I'm going to let them know. I can't anymore......

I feel like i'm alone and have no one, there could be many people around and I'd still feel alone. I feel like i'm a burden to those around me, i feel worthless, and like a failure

I feel like crap, to be perfectly honest. I had an awful body image today so I hardly ate anything all day. I'm currently crying and wishing I could go to sleep and just not woke up for a few years, maybe forever. It's so hard not to relapse, but I'm trying so hard...

Last week and this week I've been feeling happier. Maybe it's the exercise? The positivity? The meditation? Idk, but I'm liking it! Lol :) I'm not 100 percent happy yet, but at least I am making progress! :)

I feel like I don't fit in with anyone, friends or family. I don't belong anywhere. I don't want to go in and do my job and I don't want to go home. Invisible in my own home, I just want to disappear..

I feel totally worthless, out of touch with everyone. A failure and wonder why anyone would love me.

I just don't feel anything. It's kinda mind-numbing and nobody really understands..

I actually feel like self-harming myself to the point that I would be seriously injured. I do this thing when whenever I feel depressed or something similar to that I will ignore all those who are close to me and after that, rather than apologizing to the person I ignored and getting on with our lives, I will continue to ignore the person because I think it is better this way, because they are better off without me and I will not have another chance to hurt them. And today I met two of my great friends that I haven't talked since January and of course they wanted to know why I ignored them but I couldn't give them an answer because the meeting was so unexpected and I got really upset because I knew that I messed up really bad. So I just said that I didn't have a particular reason and of course they were hurt because of that. I wish I could somehow fix all of this but I feel that it's already too late. I'm sorry for just spilling everything here but I just needed to vent for a bit.