Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel like I want to cut really bad. I want to talk to my friends about it but I'm scared they'll tell my parents. Also, I'm really hopeless and empty today, and I don't really look forward to the future.

I feel like self-harming. I'm ill, and depressed. I'm trying my hardest to seem even sicker to get out of school, because the kids there hurt me. I feel worthless.

I feel like no matter what i accomplish in life I am still a failure because those that i need and have always needed to believe in me have shunned me and never really given me a fair chance at life so it has stunted my growth mentally and emotionally. I have a heart that knows only love and a spirit that seeks only kindness and although i know i have these things they will never be enough because the acceptance i have chased all my life continues to run away from me. it's just like the wind. i have felt it but never seen it. it has always remained beyond my grasp.

For the most part good... But at night my thoughts catch up with me. I can't deal with it most of the time. I had a streak going... I broke it... I cut for the first time in a week, first time I drew blood... My internet friend knows. So i'm worried now.

I feel depressed and sad and detached as usual but also hopeful and good cuz i went to therapy today.i feel like its going to all be okay. i threw away my razors today and i feel strong and able to do anything. :)

I thought about dying today. And thought about how it would benefit me. But then I thought about my family and how much they would miss me. And I would sacrifice my happiness for there's. What a day...

I feel empty like I have no emotion except sad and down

I feel completely lost. I am an outsider among my own friends and know that I am the least wanted in the group. I am just there never a first choice. Nobody wants me. I am just the weird awkward girl in the corner. Last year I did all this stuff at school that made my parents happy. I'm not doing nearly that well this year and it makes me feel like a complete failure. I am on the brink of tears 90 percent of the time. The other 10 percent I am completely numb.

I feel alone and disgusted with myself. I hate being so weak, I hate getting this way just because I saw a person. I hate that I let emotions control me, I hate it so much. I wish I could stop caring, I wish I could not care about what other people think about me.

I also wish people would stop asking me if I'm okay. I know its just that they care, but I just want to push people away and tell them to just leave me alone. The sick part of me thinks that they don't actually care about me, and I feel so disappointed and disgusted. I just don't want people in my life because I feel like the closer I let them get to me, the easier it is for them to hurt me.

I just wanna go home and hide in my room. I can't handle this.

I feel lost. disconnected with myself. depressed and stressed out. My own depression has created so much procrastination in my school work that now i feel so stressed out. like a fish without water. I see everyone on my campus doing their thing and all i want to do is yell and cry and feel the weakness i feel. I feel like a failure with no return.