Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
I can’t seem to shed this shadow of impending doom mixed in with my thoughts. Like something terrible is coming in my life.
This is not a new thing to me . I have felt this before and that feeling has proven true.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hugs you tightly ❤ whatever it is, and whatever happens. We can get through it together ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I hope your resting now, after your busy day ❤❤
How am I expected to continue with this . I get up walk a few steps to the fridge grab a microwaveable croissant, walk a few steps to the microwave, already experiencing shooting pains, put it in the microwave for 90 seconds and then the pain escalated quickly, took it out and put it on a plate, started making my way back to bed, food was cold by the time the pain settled enough to be able to eat. Three minutes and I was in extreme back and leg pain.
Original results were this morning still waiting on doctors interpretations. Longer the wait the worse the results?
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I don’t think so. Do you have an appointment with the doctor to get the results?
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hopefully you'll hear from the doctor today ❤ otherwise I'm sure you'll hear monday🙂 coping with pain and mental illness day after day is hard very hard, just got to take it day by day ❤ that's the good thing about living in a nursing home, people to help you with all your needs. Would you ever consider going into a carehome?? I know you don't want to accept help. And that's fair enough, I understand that ❤ I try to find joy in the little things, like watching the sunrise. Maybe when your physically a bit better, hopefully you will be able to do the little things that help you ❤ hugs you tightly ❤ good morning sweetie ❤
The following is the results of the original reading, they marked it as impressions? My doctors office still hasn’t responded yet.
1. Mild spinal canal narrowing at L4-L5. No other spinal canal narrowing. 2. Neuroforaminal narrowing which is greatest on the right at L4-5 where it is moderate to severe. Lesser degrees of neural foraminal narrowing as described within the findings. 3. Left extraforaminal disc protrusion at L3-L4 contacts the exited left L3 nerve root within the left L3-4 extraforaminal space. 4. Right extraforaminal disc protrusion at L4-L5 contacts the exited right L4 nerve root within the right L4-5 extraforaminal space. 5. Mostly mild to moderate degenerative changes as described within the findings
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I have no idea what any of that means😕
Neither do I. But I figured putting it here is a little easier to refer to so I can research it myself.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami ok just remember, if you look up symptoms of a common cold they will convince you your dieing. So don't look into it to much ❤
True , but I need to figure out what is happening. It seems that I am in limbo…
I will leave it at that for now. ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami yeah I know, it's ok to look it up ❤ the wait can be really hard on you🙁 just don't get your hopes up about anything, or don't think the absolute worse till you talk to the doctor ❤❤❤ I'm right here for you ❤
Well, to me the worst is trying a lot of short term fixes with temporary results because insurance requires trying noninvasive procedures first . This is progressively getting worse and it honestly feels like I am on the receiving end of someone’s voodoo doll. And I think because I’m open to my doctor about my severe depression that it seriously hurts my chances of getting medication that will effectively help with the pain. I despise medications, I have had way too many over the years and they have been mainly a waste of time and money. I have managed to scrape by without using medications. And now when I’m in the most recurring excruciating pain I have probably ever experienced, long term, enough to force me off my feet continuously, I am not getting much assistance in that regard.
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Sorry I rambled again. I am thankful to have you in my life.❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami don't be sorry ❤ I'm here for you ❤ health care should be free for everyone, I live in the UK where it is all free. I forget sometimes it's not easy for everyone else, cost of healthcare is ridiculous and just an added stress when your seriously ill like you are🙁 insurance should be the last of your worries, I'm sorry sweetie 😥 I wish I could help you more. It's heartbreaking to know the pain your in. I really do love you, your one of my best friends ❤hugs you tightly ❤ and remember I'm still holding your hand, I always will ❤
patience is no longer a virtue I have. Nigh on a month of this latest addition. Still no answers. I hope I am wrong for many reasons. Including the fact I put a lot of trust in my doctor. But I feel that I am being ignored , possibly because I let them in completely to my issues. I don’t want to go to a different doctor, starting all over again with someone new… I can’t handle anything as it is now.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami wraps you up in a cosy blanket and hugs you tightly ❤ if we can't put trust in health professionals, then, well it would be very sad times🙁 your did right to tell him everything, well done ❤ it's Friday today, let's hope you hear something or at the very latest monday. You've been really pushed this month mentally and physically, it's not easy is it. But together we are strong ❤❤
