Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
and don’t forget eva, you’re never special to anyone. you’re nobody’s only one. nobody’s one of a kind. to them, you’re just another person to talk to. don’t ever think otherwise.
@justmeeva
you are special, Eva 🥺 you have a purpose in this world.
@VictoriaLove7 I agree 💙
@justmeeva We barely know each other but from the things I read here - your friends here - You are special - they see it in you. I see it. I wish you could see you the way we do
*offers safe hugs* 💙
@justmeeva no. Do think otherwise. Think the fact that you are an inspiration to lots of us. Think the fact that you impacted us in ways no one else did. Think the fact that despite being younger than me, you have always seemed to me wiser, kinder, better, the type of person I strive to be. Think all of this, because it is true, it was always true, and it always will be true. I dont care what bad you may have done in your life eva. That does not erase the good you have caused. And i will say it as many times as you need to hear it- you help me breathe. Not cups, not my irl friends, not my sister, You, specifically, help me breathe, help me go on. That is special. You are special. Nothing can change that, not for me, not for us.
nah. nahhh- i just caught my sister stealing money from me- twice- she tried to be all sneaky and i pretended to not look, she was trying so hard not to get caught but she’s such a bad liar- she tried to cover it up by talking a lot and playing dumb saying she was searching for something- o m f g- i’m so gonna confront her about it later.
@justmeeva
*confused eyes voice* yall have money- 🤓 also help that sounds like something my sis wld do xD if i wasnt broke 🤓
@unassumingEyes
birthdays are my only consistent income resources ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ :’) /lh
@justmeeva better than nothing, i guess? Wow, money xD I have a little bit from some competition I won but like mom has it- shes saving it up for…i don't know xD
a few tears are okay.
am i the only one or does a flashlight just make the darkness like 10 times creepier-
@justmeeva
It does make it creepier ☺ because we then see stuffs that are not visible without the flashlight 🔦
i don’t know how or why this works but there are some people that when they hurt.. then it hurts me too. hurts my heart. like- really badly. and i can’t help them. i can’t talk to them. i just have to stand by and watch them hurt and hurt with them.
@justmeeva
Maybe you are an empath, Eva
@justmeeva That's the downside of being an empath 😞