Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i actually have a ton of really dark thoughts that i have to try to keep to myself because- just because you’re depressed eva, doesn’t mean you gotta make others depressed, haha-
maybe though i can spill just some of those thoughts…….. i mean i don’t force anybody to be here, i honestly don’t know why you are here since it’s- just me venting and saying “i’m done” over and over because apparently no matter how done i am, life still keeps getting worse and worse which is just kinda funny atp because it’s all simply not gonna matter soon lol-
um so yeah dark thoughts below ⬇️
tw
i quite often imagine scenarios where there’s a guy with a g*n like breaking in or something and me saying “wait, you can shoot me but just let me tell my friends, you can watch just let me tell them so they’ll know” :p
same when i’m driving somewhere in the car. every time, i imagine getting into a car crash, and then looking for my phone and quickly coming to this thread. i know what i’d say lol. but i’m not gonna say it rn-
i wonder which will come sooner, the day i go actually insane, or the day i-
too dark eva you gotta stop that
there’s thunder and lightning but no rain. that’s a first.
@justmeeva
*Sits with Eva 🥺*
There is a book titled 'the depression book' by cheri Huber. It explains depression & how to manage living with it. It is written in a light hearted way. 🥺
..she could’ve found it. she was so close. i’m surprised she didn’t see it- or did she? no, i’d know if she saw it. ...right? she would’ve told me something. right?
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i had an okay day today. a genuinely okay day. i never have good days so an okay day is a big thing to me. and then came mom, and just started targeting me and ruined it all. she said that the house being messy (it wasn’t that messy) is depressing. that’s depressing? i..- she wouldn’t survive being me. i usually don’t care about her complaining but my almost good day being ruined.. idk it just hurt in a different kind of way.
