Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i am so tired.
@justmeeva
*sends you wuvv and a warm, fuzzywuzzy blankiee if okiiee* 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yesss exactly what i needed 😌 thank youu 💕💕
@justmeeva
aww 💕 your welcome 😌✨
@justmeeva cups glitched and said “user not found” for you just now before opening ur profile as normal. I just had a mini freak out 😀 so im gonna drop by some optional hugs 🩷
it’s literally 8:40pm why’s it so bright outside
@justmeeva
it’s 8:44 pm here too 😮
it’s literally still lighting up my room
@justmeeva
at 8:40?! it’s 8:40 here too and it’s dark…
:') this planet is so strange
@LoveMyMoonflowers
we had our clock turned to “summer time” some time ago, guess we’re timezone buddies for some time of the year then :0 ✨ but- the difference-.
@justmeeva
i don’t understand Earth 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah i can’t think of anything to explain this either. 🤧🤧😭
@justmeeva
@LoveMyMoonflowers
(ey cups is cupsing again :D)
same, ni, same.
@justmeeva
(it happens on your side too? cups is so weird. 🤦🏻♀️)
i really dislike winter being over. i think i’m even growing to dislike summer. the season of my birthday. the season everybody seems to love.
thinking about texting “how are you?” to that one girl in my school who joined this year. my teacher made me stay after school at the start of the year to meet her, so she would have someone she knows when she goes on the trial day. she was nice, quiet around most people, pretty similar to me in some ways, we got along well. but she rarely came to school. the times she’d come became more rare as time went by, and she eventually went to homeschooling. i wonder how she’s doing. but.. i don’t want to have the chance of starting to talk to her again and then disappear. so idk. maybe i shouldn’t afterall. maybe it’ll be easier that way.
man honestly i’d be such a good friend. i’d literally do anything for the person who treated me normally and who i’d be comfortable around no matter what, who’d care about me with no second doubts. i’d literally- i’d do anything and everything all the time. it’s such a waste tbh like-
but well my body and self hatred issues aren’t letting me be near people my age without feeling the desire to disappear anyway <3 so it doesn’t matter.