Eva’s Crazy Mind

@justmeeva cups be trynna to scare me fr 😔 its as bad as autocorrect 😔🤍

@unassumingEyes

*smh cups* i would have freaked out/felt a bit scared too. :') *smh glitches* @_@ 

it’s literally 8:40pm why’s it so bright outside 

@justmeeva

it’s 8:44 pm here too 😮

it’s literally still lighting up my room

@justmeeva

at 8:40?! it’s 8:40 here too and it’s dark… 

:') this planet is so strange 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

we had our clock turned to “summer time” some time ago, guess we’re timezone buddies for some time of the year then :0 ✨ but- the difference-.

@justmeeva

i don’t understand Earth 😭 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

yeah i can’t think of anything to explain this either. 🤧🤧😭

@justmeeva

@LoveMyMoonflowers

(ey cups is cupsing again :D)

same, ni, same. 

@justmeeva

(it happens on your side too? cups is so weird. 🤦🏻‍♀️) 

(there’s a specific reason i picked this gif 🤪)

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

if it is what i think it is then awwwww 🩷🥺🥺😭🥺🥺🩷

@justmeeva

when i saw it i was like omg it’s perfect 🥺 (and so accurate) /gen

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

stoopp i’m actually gonna cry that’s so adorable it’s my fave gif ever now 🥺🥺

@justmeeva

same it’s so adorable 🥺😭 me saving that forever now lol 🥺

@justmeeva

i need to figure out what anime it’s from 🥺 

(if it’s from an anime, idk, it looks like it is) 

if it were winter it would’ve been pitch black hours and hours ago :’)

i really dislike winter being over. i think i’m even growing to dislike summer. the season of my birthday. the season everybody seems to love. 

thinking about texting “how are you?” to that one girl in my school who joined this year. my teacher made me stay after school at the start of the year to meet her, so she would have someone she knows when she goes on the trial day. she was nice, quiet around most people, pretty similar to me in some ways, we got along well. but she rarely came to school. the times she’d come became more rare as time went by, and she eventually went to homeschooling. i wonder how she’s doing. but.. i don’t want to have the chance of starting to talk to her again and then disappear. so idk. maybe i shouldn’t afterall. maybe it’ll be easier that way. 

man honestly i’d be such a good friend. i’d literally do anything for the person who treated me normally and who i’d be comfortable around no matter what, who’d care about me with no second doubts. i’d literally- i’d do anything and everything all the time. it’s such a waste tbh like-

but well my body and self hatred issues aren’t letting me be near people my age without feeling the desire to disappear anyway <3 so it doesn’t matter. 

✨ it is what it is ✨

no because pretty privilege is such a thing. take crying in front of the class for example. if you’re pretty, you’ll have everyone around you, comforting and asking if you’re okay, it becomes a whole *** mood, but if you’re not, it’s just cringe and you’re suddenly a crybaby and everyone will talk about you. istg i have so many examples of this. it’s not *** fair. i don’t choose to be like this you know. 

whatever happens or doesn’t happen i’m not going back to school once the break ends. 

tw.

wearing a hoodie to bed to make sure they won’t see my arms (:

i have so many different thoughts all over the place. 

“my head is a jungle”

corners are so comfortable. like- sitting in a corner just feels so.. safe. i can’t really explain it but it’s a very underrated feeling.

@justmeeva

real. 💜 i know this feeling. 

@justmeeva I always go for the corners 🤍 might explain the name of my vent space/our HQ on here xD

@unassumingEyes 

i thought about that while rereading this too :p

@justmeeva I always go for the corners 🤍 might explain the name of my vent space/our HQ on here xD

i can’t put my headphones on before mom comes home. yes, she’s still at work. unless she’s on her way home lol. her work days are really unpredictable. anyway the night can only begin when she’s home bc otherwise i won’t know when she comes home and if she catches me still awake- no good. 

i love the darkness but it still gets scary sometimes. 

2 days eva 

…

@justmeeva

*sits here if okie* 🥺

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

of course it’s okie 🩷