Eva’s Crazy Mind

@justmeeva

😱😱😱 /j 

*attacks you with hugs* 😛

@LoveMyMoonflowers

*accepts the attack and hugs* :D

@justmeeva

*whispers* how’s de ni fren?

@justmeeva

hehe, i’m okay, hru? 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

(don’t mind the unchanged tag)

@LoveMyMoonflowers

is you sure? idk how eva is but that’s oke

@justmeeva

yes me sure 💜 awwe it’s okay not to know sometimes. Life’s hard :') does eva friend wanna talk about it 🥺💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers

yippee i’m happy ur okie :0

it’s okay for now, it’s just very mixed emotions but nothing wrong atm. i promise i will talk if i have to, okie? (knowing my mood changes it might happen anytime lol). i’m vvv thankful for you 🩷 besides, seeing you is what got the good emotions mixed with the bad :D (meaning i’m happy to see you.) *hugs* 🫂💕

@justmeeva

emotions can be messy :') me understand. *hugs you* 

kind of early but the night's already taking over my mind. how fun.

oof. all kinds of memories, flashbacks and thoughts are coming flooding in.

is it possible to have a million thoughts and none at the same time? apparently yes.

it's a different kind of pain when you realise you're starting to forget their face.. their eyes.. their voice.

tw?
''quiet on the outside, screaming on the inside.''

*motivation of any kind has left this world*

it's hard to get over someone when literally everything reminds you of them.

''friends can break your heart too''

letting people down again.

@justmeeva *sits with eva buddy* 

“you didn’t say goodbye

and a part of me believes that means you’re coming back.”

i’m having a hard time trying to find a reason why to keep going. there’s no happiness for me, not for long anyway. it’s like i have to keep myself from any happy moments in order to protect myself from the bad emotions that always follow. it’s not supposed to *** be like that. 

i don’t want to forget…

why try when you can just.. not?

@justmeeva *hugs if oki* sorry i had to disappear last night :(

I know it doesnt change anything, but im so proud of u for trying and so grateful ur still here with us <33 

@unassumingEyes

*hugs* it’s okay, and thank you. it does mean much to me. 🩷

it’s sad because if you’d ask me now if i would delete all the memories, i would actually consider it. 

wow great job eva. 

@justmeeva u oki love? 

@unassumingEyes

yeah sure

@justmeeva hope thats true…but its okay if ur not 🥺 * sits with you * 🪑

*sits in a corner alone*

@justmeeva *sits on the side quietly* lmk if you want some more space

“i recognise this pattern.”

@justmeeva eva buddy ok?

@unassumingEyes

not exactly but ik you’re not either and i can’t make you deal with me while having to deal with yourself at the same time so i’m fine. 

flashbacks, memories, thoughts. 

***   ***   ***. 

@justmeeva

*sits with you* :') 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

*sits*

the fact that deep breathing doesn’t even help when i’m trying to hold back tears because to my brain it’s just a sign that we doing bad that we need to put effort into being okay lol. not a single thing that’s right about me.

@justmeeva I love you (as friends). Sorry i cnt support. Hugs if okay