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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP March 20th

happiness means pain for me so idk maybe i am happy i just can’t see the difference because it’s all *** pain

justmeeva OP March 20th

@EmmyMarie06

also i’m not trying anymore either because i’m done with trying i tried to try but nothing changed, if anything it all went for the worse so i’m sorry but i can’t try anymore

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EmmyMarie06 March 21st

@justmeeva      your decision. but you cant get mad at yourself because you cant make overnight changes. no one on this earth can do that. give yourself time. 

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justmeeva OP March 20th

i’m gonna go i probably shouldn’t even be on cups right now

justmeeva OP March 20th

tc

mytwistedsoul March 20th

I'm sorry you're hurting so much right now 💙 Is there anything I can do to help? 

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justmeeva OP March 21st

@mytwistedsoul 

no, nothing, but it’s not your fault. 🩷

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unassumingEyes March 21st

Eva buddy? Hope you’re oki ❤️🥺

LoveMyMoonflowers March 21st

@justmeeva

Sitting here quietly… me so sorry me wasn’t there last night friend. 😞 i wish i was… i wish. 😞💜 *offering a million… no… a billion giant huggie wuggies just for you* 💜 Ni friend kept you in her thoughts. and me still keeping you in my thoughts okie? me loves you so so so so so much friend 💜 Me not sure what’s happening in your world now, exactly… 😞 but me knows you’ve been hurting and struggling vv much lately and life’s been a big meanie and it’s been hard… 😞💜 sitting with you friend 💜 i just hope your safe now.

hope your safe… 

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justmeeva OP March 21st

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

it’s ok, it’s not your fault. *hugs*..

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justmeeva OP March 21st

21. march. exactly a year ago, i still had my best friend. 

justmeeva OP March 21st

god i’m crying in the bathroom, away from my mom’s eyes, again..

justmeeva OP March 21st

everything’s only getting worse yesterday and today are the worst days of my entire 14 years of life