@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
I know you want nothing more than to be loved. I know because I was there once upon time too. Anything to be loved. To be safe and happy. But this is not the way. He is not the way. Damn her for standing by and letting him do this
@mytwistedsoul
I'm too high to understand anything but he cares for me and he likes me and he loves me more than my mother does.
@amiableBunny4016 Hopefully you'll read them again tomorrow. The drugs have altered reality for you right now and there's no point in arguing with you. I'll be quiet now.
this *** is so addicting. i could literally inject myself with it all day long...
@amiableBunny4016 You're probably all ready there
I typed and deleted about a dozen replies to you. I need you to stop and think Bunny. Do you think that stuff he's giving you is free? It's not. There's a hefty price attached to everything he's giving you. The drugs - the booze - all that he will want payment for and you'll end up doing it because you'll be hooked to it. You'll pay the price because he'll take the payment. And I'm sorry - ya know? I'm sorry I'm saying these things here and now and hoping I'm wrong but deep down - I don't think I am. I know I'm just reading your words here and I'm just some pathetic loser behind a screen but I really do care and I'm seeing a wreck about to happen and I'm helpless to stop you from making the choices you are. I'm helpless to help you and I'm sorry if I'm overstepping or crossing lines by saying the things here that I am but - please think ok? You're smart - I know you are
@mytwistedsoul
whatever is bound to happend will happend. my life without all this , will be the same. i am the price for everything soul. i dont pay the price. you know what... why doesnt someone sell me off to someone? and with that take my organs and my clothes and my things, and sell me off. because i am the price tag for all this anyways. i am a doll.... they drag me around. this will be my life soul. im not even high right now. if i get out of this place... i will get put in a place where they look after me for the money. wheather i stay here or not, wheather i do drugs or not, wheather life changes or not, it will stay this way. i am the price for all my dreams and wishes soul. i cant pay for anything.
and who will gain the happiness from this? even he wont gain happiness. of course not. he is just as dead as i am. and he gave me all this *** for free. one day he will ask me for money.... i dont have money. but i can pay my body to him.
@mytwistedsoul
there is nothing to be sorry about. no one is a pathetic loser. no one is anything here. we are just humans burning ourselves into this fire. and expecting not to get hurt. now please do one thing.... forgive me. i beg you. forgive me. but i cant do anything. and from now on, i swear on my fathers grave, i am not begging for anyone's help to take me out of this place. i am not gonna ask for anyone's help neither am i running away from this place. forgive me okay? please.
@mytwistedsoul
dont kill your self esteem or self respect, just to support me soul. 💙 i love you the way you are.
@amiableBunny4016 I love you the way you are too Bunny. I support you - of course I do. I just - I only ever wanted good things for you. I thought maybe if I gave you things to think about - idea's and such - it would help
And of course always speak from your heart - I'm just freaking out here alittle
@mytwistedsoul
your free to share ideas and emotions 💙 your unique and special in your own way. your words are a comfort to the mind soul. i always crave your presence when i log on to here funly enough. <3 *sends hugs if okay* you only ever wished for good things :)
hehehe <3 *big bunny huggles and comfort beams your way (if okay)*
TW//sh
i just realized how clean i was from self harm....
and now i literally broke the whole cycle, of trying not to hurt myself
the last price tag anyone will ever have to pay for me, is my funeral costs.
@amiableBunny4016 wait what? Bunny No Jesus I'm sorry I said anything. I should have just kept my mouth shut
@mytwistedsoul
you didnt say anything wrong. it didnt influence me either. i dont really care about what other people say, neither does it affect me. you were right in a way. im just talking from the heart. whatever comes inside, comes out in here.
just finished a *** exam exam was 1hr 45mins. i finished half an hour early T_T i just used that time to fix my sleep deprivation.
children rushing to get home.
just after an exhausting day of messing about, working hard and running around.
thinking that if they could fit into the crowd, they would be found.
if you didn't have friends, you were depressed and lonely.
trauma, anxiety and depression what were other children couldn't see.
behind those eyes of yours,
you held tears of constant unbearable pain.
behind that smile of yours,
you held that fake happiness and made it your personality.
you knew something was always wrong.
but you pushed it away to the side like it didn't matter to you anymore.
behind that silence of yours.
you ached to talk about it.
you ached to scream and cry in this terrible misery you could never escape.
you ached to say something.
but you didn't speak up, i mean why would a child speak up?
why would you let your voice be heard, when the world had gone deaf?
everyone just turned a blind eye on you.
turned their backs on you.
the world turned upside down too.
they all seemed happy to go home.
yet you dreaded going. not the idea of going... but the journey there.
because you just knew.... you had already left everyone's hearts.
your home is the fire.
and you will burn in it.
and you will die in it.
"pack up now! its home time!" the teacher announced.
the end.
