In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Sorry but i need- someone- im this close-
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@iloveyouxx @justmeeva @LoveMyMoonflowers whoevers awake-
39 (feels like 44)
Holidays in schools announced soon. Expecting holidays in unis and colleges. No idea about work places yet
Tw see what i mean? So many accidents on the road nowadays. How do you expect people to drive under the sun after hours in the heat? 5 of my sister's classmates have gotten in accidents over the past two days. 5 in 2 days. What do they expect? If colleges, unis and workplaces dont declare holidays/shorter timings/work from home etc it will only get worse. Absolute stupidity to expect us to be ok in this heat. Even robots couldnt do it. In June summer vacations will start. Its only a week more. In the past two days there have been 5 accidents just among my sisters classmates. Even taking 5 per 2days as minimum accidents going around in the city, that is atleast 15 accidents in the week. Cant they give one week off instead? How much will it hurt? It is better to face those consequences than send us all to the hospital god forbid. So mad at them right now. Sisters classmates around 19-20 yrs old. Theyre still young. The class is going crazy with worry and why shouldnt they? Im so mad
Tw keep searching easy ways to unalive and they be giving me helpline numbers xD im not going to do anything lol. I mean, i think of it but then i wldnt get to see 14yr old cousin become 15yr old cousin and cheer 12y old cousin when he wins next years match too (yes he will i believe in him 🤭🥳) or 17yr old start grade12 or literally any of their milestones and tbh they feel like siblings and i am so going to cheer them on as long as i can 🥳
But its nice to know the ways- idk why
Oh ****
Dont overthink it dont overthink it dont overthink it its nothing everythings fine-
@unassumingEyes im overthinking it-
I just make it worse
@unassumingEyes i did mess up. I did mess up- i was trying to avoid messing up and i just messed up instead- but im trying to make it better make it up to them. I just- im not good at- at people. I dont- I try, but sometimes i misunderstand and it makes a big mess- and then im just here explaining im sorry i didnt mean it like that i know what it looks like but thats not whag i was doing i did it for xyz reasons im sorry- and hoping thats enough-
Just a random song rant lol my sis doesnt like the fact that i like "Give a little" (Le Grand x CG5) she hasnt actually listened to it just hears me singing under my breath sometimes xD but how can I not like it when it has lines like:
Everyone projecting their dreams on me/A million life plans on what they want me to be/Saying give a little, give a little, give a little, give a little/Peice by peice Im slipping away, hey/
Be kind, be patient, be hard to please/It seems contradicting but do it honestly/just give a little, give a little, give a little, give a little/Until you disintegrate
All the hypocrites/ With slivers in their eyes/ I'll scream that I'm sick of it/I can't see the beams in mine/ Obscene expectations/ Is the most toxic form of pride/ So, why should I deserve to do more with my life?
Not the whole song lol tho i wrote alot of lines xD its just these. Describe. Everything. Perfectly.
"Peice by peice im slipping away, hey" > me trying not to lose myself in all these expectations (hence that post of things that are me...it feels so small...it feels so small-)
And those last three lines i mentioned of obscene expectations^^^ my thought processes be like that 😂😭
Would recommend listening to it too lyrics are awesome but the music is pretty neat as well^
Urges urges tons of urges ✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️ xD
Right now atleast i manage to come on cups when they come but if someday i dont- oops-
Uhm i might end up-,
Ugh.
Something about me is just sad today
