In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Why is lying so simple? Told myself i wldnt lie unless necessary ive been up maybe 20 minutes and let a lie slip already. Just say you have a headache! Its not that hard to be honest!
Thank god noone has ever called me honest. Id feel like trash if anyone ever thought that.
And God, i dont really know if i believe, but if Youre real, thank You for all the good people, even the quiet ones, even the weird ones, even the ones we never deserved
You worry bout me worryin bout you aint we caught in an endless loop tell me why you hate your self and lemme pretend, lemme pretend i cn sing ur rage away
Theres a storm inside you i have known to love
Dont need to look to see the clouds above
I can feel your fury like lightnening sparks
Bring down ur raging floods i got a million Noahs arcs
Bring down ur raging floods
U worry bout worryin
Oh i cn see those thoughts scurryin
They call u strange and out of range
Ill die before i let em make you change
I can feel ur hurricanes inside
Let em out let em shout u got nothin to hide
I can feel ur love and sympathy behind
Oh let em out let em shout theres nothin to mind
Its so annoying how she expects full respect 24/7
U know what she says she says dont ever raise my voice at her not even a little no matter what shes doing
isnt that **** ironic
Id go mute but shed probably go insane with rage and start hitting me. I genuinely think this is what wld happen if i went mute.
And still still part of me feels guilty for thinking so bad of her
you idiot, you absolute **** idiot, you’re scared of her
Shes saying uve been on the phone since **** waking up like my sis was out with the phone till an hour ago so thats not even **** possible she really just n e e d s to yell doesnt she
Tw
are you deaf- sis in a fit of anger
and suddenly-
are you deaf
are you deaf
are you deaf
i wish. How **** up is that?
Tw
She “loves me”
but if she were to know:
- im not a muslim right now, not really
- i have male friends on here
- i hold my breath on hard nights, think of goodbye notes and sharp things
- i have had nightmares of her, not one, not two, but several
- i dont want to marry, even tho i love kids
- i am not homophobic, transphobic or any of that and think that even if lgbtq+ ppl are “wrong” shunning, hurting and mocking them is worse
if she knew that. Well. You cant call it love when its so conditional, can you?
My sis went and snitched to mom with exaggerations (twisted her hand?? I held it for 0.0005 seconds?? Im not even lying for once if it twisted that was not on purpose??)
and mom called me disrespectful along with other words in urdu and yelled at me and said i shld be ashamed.
fun?
And u know why i held my sisters hand for a second? And what the “fight” was about? My lovely, wonderful, sister spent every minute since getting home on the tablet i needed to study on, so i took the tablet when she went to bath, left the room for a minute after she bathed and came back to see her on the tablet, on youtube. And put one hand on her shoulder, one on her hand (thats the the aforementioned “twisting”, i just held her hand??), and said i need that to study
And she said, first, i dont care and then take it before practically throwing the tablet at me, along with insults. I got annoyed and sarcastically apologized for touching her hand how could i do such a thing and she yelled at me to shut up and then asked if i was deaf before storming out
thats what happened.
i know i know we sound like 5years old but literally how is it my fault i just said i need the device to study and she got all mad at me??
@unassumingEyes no but seriously i want to hear the version of this story she told my mom because i literally dont see what i did wrong xD
@unassumingEyes ….sis just aggressively brought me milkshake. I said thank you and she stormed away
…okay…?
I mean…?
id feel guilty but i wasnt even mad at her lol im mad at mom for believing her over me so myt aswell enjoy the milkshake-
sis still seems mad tho. Angry milkshake?
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🤷🏻♀️
….why cnt we just talk like people?