In the Corner

*tw* just heard 14yr old cousin say an angry line his dad used to say

*shifts awkwardly*

Its probably just his headache making him angrier...

Parent ur kids right, parents. That line  should never have left my cousins mouth, let alone my uncle's. That line should not be common in our households. No angry words should

Tw

One

(How am i supposed to compare my achievements to my sister’s, without comparing how she can do what takes me tons of hours in a matter of minutes?)

Two

(How am i supposed to be a leader when the world knows me as her sister and her sister only?)

Three

(How am I supposed to feel proud of her achievements, which took some effort, when noone is proud of mine, which take so much effort, and time, and stress?)

Four

(How can i keep the jealousy away, or under control, when all you do is compare me to her, her, her)

Five

(How can I learn to love myself when you’re constantly trying to mold me into another her, when my teacher said im just like my sis but more shy, and said ‘shy” as though it was a defect, when my clothes are hers and my shoes are hers and my books are hers and you tried to give me her vests and i shoved em in the closet to never use and you tried to give me her school bag and i lost my temper and refused, how can I see myself as me when you see me as another her?)

Six

(How can I stop feeling like this, and feel proud of her again, and proud of me again, and unaffected again? How can I undo all this hidden jealousy that isn’t her fault, but isn’t mine either? 

How can you yell at me that Im not allowed to compare myself to her, when that’s all you ever do?)

(She grinned at me, when i lost my temper bout the bag, and asked me if i had an “inferiority complex” teasingly. I snapped that it was about time the teachers in school learnt more about me than me being her sister. 

Despite everything, it feels like only two of my teachers ever saw me, and not another her.)

Tw death is the cowards way out death is the cowards way out death is the cowards way out-      

*dumbs, dumbly* 

Hm. ❤️ to eva buddy if oki

It should not be a tradition for me to be crying at 5am in bed a few days before exams but this is the 3rd time xD

PEOPLE the lights gone and i hv the flashlight on and there is a BIG fly in the room it keeps coming infront of the flashlight i am ALONE with a BIG fly i cant SEE it it keeps attacking me-

My head hurts :’)

Life’s a game i dont know the rules of :’)