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Iamwhoiamwhoami December 31st, 2023

Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.

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Tinywhisper11 September 29th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami don't forget to take your meds ❤❤ I'm looking what to buy myself for birthday and xmas😁 I looooovveee xmas🎅 but I love you more ❤❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 29th

@Tinywhispee11

Lavender is a scent I love, I just woke up after falling asleep for a little nap. Your birthday?? So when is your birthday if you don’t mind my asking? ❤️❤️❤️ I love you ❤️❤️❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami november the third ❤ I accept diamonds, cheques and all major credit 😁😁 thanks in advance ❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

❤️ Ok, well I only accept ❤️ Well, why don’t we save that for if / when we meet in person. ❤️❤️ Of course I would have to be reminded a little in advance ❤️❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami sounds good😁❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 29th

@Tinywhisper11

❤️❤️Thank you for the medication reminder, for being in a different time zone, six hours difference, you got that reminder in right on time. I take my nighttime batch at 10 o’clock, give or take a bit depending on old timer naps 💤💤💤 I woke up about 11 and actually checked my phone to see if you , or anyone else messaged me. Then I took my meds. Does that tell you something about where I rate the importance of things right now? ❤️❤️. My health is secondary to hearing from all of you❤️❤️ Actually I should have probably used the word pain maybe, I would not be too badly affected if I didn’t take most of my meds.

Other than the blood pressure med, the nerve and pain meds. And the one for the headaches and such from concussions. The rest are over the counter, a multi vitamin , nexium for severe acid reflux, another vitamin the doctor recommended, and a couple of other supplements that I take for the trans side of me that even though I will never be able to live as I probably should live with that part of me towards the front a lot more and a part of my daily life, the changes made by these meds I don’t want to lose. Part of the changes are a little bit physically noticeable.

There is a body cream supplement that I haven’t used since I have been bedridden. I know that my supplements interact ok with the pain medication, but the cream is one ai apply on my legs, and am hesitant on affecting the effects of the meds.

Actually those supplements I have not told my doctor about and I don’t plan to. I don’t want anything about my trans part of me on my medical records.

❤️❤️I love you ❤️❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I understand but it's kinda sad, you should be able to embrace your trans side, everyone should. Maybe one day you will be able to ❤ oneday when we live together, I'll accidentally throw out all your clothes, and you'll have no other option than to wear my dresses😁 ❤ but I'm sure those tablets won't interfere with your current medical condition, so try not to worry about it ❤❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

❤️ we will see what the future brings ❤️

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 29th

@Tinywhisper11

I am awfully tired for some reason, so if I don’t respond right away I probably dozed off again. So I apologize in advance. 💕💕💕 I embrace you in a hug smelling of lavender, I love you 💕💕💕. Thank you for the shower , I desperately needed it 💕💕💕

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami hugs you tightly back ❤❤ I fell asleep not long after I messaged you last, and I haven't long woke up😂😂 we must be starting to prepare for our winter hibernation😂😂😂

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 29th

Even my mind and body like to mess with me. I was really tired, I could barely open my eyes. I write about how tired I am and the strong chance of falling asleep, then a short while later I am wide awake.

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami don't worry I'm sleeping enough for the both of us ❤😁

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 29th

I had to look back at what Tiny called it , but I was thinking about my pfp . I can’t even tell what it really is even if I look at it on my laptop.

I found that picture online somewhere, and it is a good representation of me in several ways. To me the picture represents on one side, the part of me that I will never become. A woman trapped in the darkness looking longingly into the light and knowing that she will never live in the light so will never grow and blossom. In the other side it is the rest of me that has spent a lot of years living in the endless tunnels in the darkness and realizing that I have become so used to the darkness that I wouldn’t stand a chance of surviving in the light.

I should change it I suppose . At least to something that ca be easier to recognize what it is.

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I can see what it is ❤❤ and I really like it ❤❤ but yeah maybe a change would be nice, what sort of thing was you thinking??

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Tinywhisper11 I'll be back as soon as I can, sorry I gotta take meds and get dressed, this night take a while ❤ I love you ❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

Ok, I will be right here. ❤️ I love you too ❤️

Did you see helgafys message about our messages making others uncomfortable? She put LOL there as well.

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami no I did not 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I'll back track and find it in a minute😂😂😂😂😂 helga is amazing ❤❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

It is right above your message about your pine cone in the window. ❤️❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I just saw it😂😂😂😂😂😂

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

I really have no idea ❤️

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mytwistedsoul September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami It reminds me of the little girl in Poltergeist. When she sat in front of the tv 

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

Ok, definitely needs to change…..❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami 😂😂😂😂😂 soul, don't scare iam😂😂😂

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mytwistedsoul September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@mytwistedsoul

Yep, that’s it. I will try and find something else.❤️

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mytwistedsoul September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami Tbh seeing it small on my phone I always thought it was a set of glowing eyes lol. It wasn't until I enlarged it that I realized that's not what it was

How about your favorite animal? Or maybe some really nice scenery? You could change it with the seasons or go with the holidays? It's almost October you could pick something Halloween-ish? 

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@mytwistedsoul

When I first saw it I thought it was a woman or girl in the dark looking out a window.

All of those ideas are definitely possibilities. What I would like is something that represents me and is a reality picture. That may not be a realistic option right now . This current picture , at least what I first saw in it does represent me , both the hidden part of me and the rest of me out in the open.

Looking from the darkness at the light shining from my friends.

I’m not savvy enough, or maybe I just don’t want to spend money on an app I don’t want just to use one picture for that purpose. I have taken pictures and they are “too big “ to load here.

It seems like I am making a mountain out of a molehill with this , and maybe I am. But that picture represents me, and as my username suggests I can’t figure this out.

Maybe I should just try and go back to the other one, and stop overthinking y.

Thank you as always.

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mytwistedsoul September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I understand your desire to have something that is "you". If the picture is too large you could crop it and save it so you can download it for you PFP. Or if it's on a website you could just download it. Or you could leave a link here and I can put it on imgur and give you a link for it and you could download it? I do agree that spending money on an app just for one picture isn't worth it. I'm happy to help if you'd like :)

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@mytwistedsoul

I will keep that in mind thank you for offering to help.

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mytwistedsoul September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami You're welcome :)

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@mytwistedsoul

That is probably actually what it is, I never even thought about that, but you are right it definitely looks like it.

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 29th

I being of questionably sound mind and a decrepit body, hereby do declare….. I have no idea what to declare.

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I think we should call a meeting about your pfp ❤

@Helgafy @mytwistedsoul iam, wants a new pfp all ideas would be great 😁❤

I personally think I'd you use my photo, then we'll look like twins and confuse people, whilst also be able to play pranks😁😁

Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I managed to go outside and talk to my son and God yesterday ❤❤ today I got my psychiatrist coming to see me. She is really nice, but I still always get very nervous before seeing her for some reason. I do with all apointments though ❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

I might consider that idea of the of, but even so, I am not intelligent enough to figure out how to do that. 😆

That must’ve been a rewarding experience yesterday ❤️❤️

❤️❤️ I understand that feeling quite well, My anxieties decide to take over before every one of mine.❤️❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami when my carer was getting me dressed he said something about a big star 'puff daddy' being arrested. Alot of rumours are going around about Hollywood and lots of singers, not sure why. But he said to becareful, alot of rumours are being spread and to try stay out of it all. So I thought I should warn you too ❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

Thank you. There are many times when I think that is what fuels this country. Rumors. ❤️

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I think it fuels most countries🙁 princess kate, in the UK. She unfortunately had cancer🙁 her and Prince William wanted to keep it quiet, till they managed to sit their 3 children down and talk to them, tell them about it first. Their all very young children, it's a very sad situation. But within days rumours were spreading she had been kidnapped, or killed etc. It was terrible😥😥 people can be just so heartless

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami ok I'm gonna be in and out for a while, so if I don't answer you straight away, it's because I'm trying to do 5 other things at the same time ❤😁 hugs you tightly ❤❤I love you ❤❤

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

Ok no worries, 💕💕I love you too 💕💕

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Iamwhoiamwhoami OP September 30th

@Tinywhisper11

As far as Hollywood is concerned, I think there has always been rumors and scandals. I don’t pay much attention to any of it.

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Tinywhisper11 September 30th

@Iamwhoiamwhoami yeah I don't listen to news, or use anyother sites other than this, no social media, I like to live in my own little happy bubble. But still people insist on telling you all about theese things

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