Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
that one upvote was such a relief <3
@iloveyouxx <3
@justmeeva
oh :') I honestly thought I was forgotten haha. :')🩷I’m sorry. apologizing felt kinda wrong because I feel like me leaving didn’t really affect anyone yeah I should stop- (reading over this and honestly it didn’t. not to be sad or anything.)
ive been on here for a while after everything but I just lurk and you just made me feel so seen/valid <3 you’re still so kind hehe idk why I expect people to change. I don’t really wanna go back to the corner tho- I’m barely on cups but either way I don’t think it matters :')🩷
smh I think eva’s evaness is gonna make me get attached to being here again :P🩷/lh but actually tho I love you sm🩷I can’t really smile at all right now but I’m ?closer? to it than I’ve been in a while xD I feel like my face is just frozen xD but it’s okie you make me happy on the inside lol<3💕💕(sorry if this is pressuring in any way💜to be supporting or lighthearted or anything- take your time to reply and im gonna appreciate any reply <3/gen)
@iloveyouxx
no lovely, you’re not someone that’s easy to forget. not at all <3 you don’t have to apologise for anything 🩷 i know you have a lot going on, and not just right now, but generally, and i’m really sorry about that. so taking a break or just lurking is completely valid and okie 🩷 but i know i’m not the only one who missed you 🩷 and i’m not just making it up, you’ll see readable proof if you go to eyes’ corner hehe. if you haven’t already. but no rush of course, we’ll understand if you need time <3 tbh you were constantly on my mind, but i didn’t really say anything because i was afraid to say something wrong or “scare you away”- if that makes sense. maybe it’s just me overthinking and being stupid. :’) but i still care about you, even if you’re away, even if i’m away, even if… ykw, any possible scenario. i don’t think i know how to not care once i’ve started. and i don’t think it’s a bad thing, not entirely anyway. <3
closer to a smile than you’ve been in a while? because of me? :0 woahh that’s such a big thing to me (/gen and if it sounds strange, i’m in a strange mood don’t mind it), it deserves a whole tiny comfortable celebration :0
🥳🎉
there (:
i love you too nadia friendo 💗
*casually gives emotional support cat*
i think i’ll just stay silent for a while. i’m doing more harm than good.
@justmeeva
Love you eva ❤️