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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP June 12th

isn’t it kinda scary that if something happened to you your online friends would never know about it

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unassumingEyes June 12th

@justmeeva (its scary for me that if something happened to you i would never know) 

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@unassumingEyes

(scary for me too.)

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justmeeva OP June 12th

yes my thoughts are all over the place. 

justmeeva OP June 12th

it’s far from everything that’s on my mind tho. 

justmeeva OP June 12th

i feel like i might just fall asleep without choosing to about any minute even though i’m not tired

justmeeva OP June 12th

i feel like my brain’s drunk even though i’ve never been drunk bc yk 14 but somehow i have an idea of what it feels like and that’s this feeling right here

justmeeva OP June 12th

mom, i will be on top of the world in the future. in fact, i’ll be as high as you possibly can be. in heaven. 

justmeeva OP June 12th

i’m not even sure if i believe in heaven. do i have the right to? i don’t believe in god. i don’t know what i believe in. the universe? guardian angels? just life (i’d rather not)? i don’t believe in god but i also don’t not believe in god. i don’t know. but i also don’t care too much atm. 

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unassumingEyes June 12th

@justmeeva (same, for all of that) 

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justmeeva OP June 12th

i’m not me right now 

justmeeva OP June 12th

i’m not alive

justmeeva OP June 12th

i’m not in this world