Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
how am i supposed to get better, if literally my whole life is school? all my free time goes to studying or homework or stress. weekends aren’t any different from weekdays. you’d think that at least i’m doing great in school then, right? somehow, no.
i don’t have time.
i don’t have time.
i don’t have time.
i don’t have time..
@justmeeva
*sits here quietly and leaves a warm safes huggiiee for eva beanie* 🫂💙 if it okie to ask, don’t have time for what, eva bean? :o 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*but hugsss* 🩷
@justmeeva
*huggle wuggles you vvv tight* me loves you friend <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i loves you more fren, thank you 💕
@justmeeva
mmm no i love you more :P 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
smh smh, but i will ✨~accept that~✨ even though i feel confident saying i love you more than there are stars in the sky ✨💕
@justmeeva
why you so sweet 😭😭😭💜
that’s a whole lot D: stars in the sky, eh? 🤔 ni friend loves eva friend more than there are atoms in the universe 😎
@LoveMyMoonflowers
the walls eating our hugs and love 😭 (i’m on phone so the text just- halfway poofs to the side 😭)
*hugsssss as long as i can (i has to go soon :c)* 🫂🩷
@justmeeva
hehe yeah that happens when me on phone too :o 💜 and take care evabuddy 🥺 me will ttyl <3 me has to poof in about 20 minutes too :') but 20 minutes is long ish :o 💜
*keeps hugging* 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
gtgggg see you later frenn *last squeezie and bapoof* 🩷
@justmeeva
see you later friend… i hope you’re okie. 🥺💜 me will be waiting for you *🪑*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i’m (completely) backk 🩷 for some time tho, then i’ll have to go study. (proof to the ‘my whole life is school’ complaint.)
@justmeeva
*huggles youuuu* school is ugh :/
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs (ni hugs are the bestest 🩷)*
agreed.
@justmeeva
*keeps hugging* (Eva hugsss are the bestestestestestestttt 🤗 because you are <3)
*yeets school* 😎 Ah I genuinely hope we could actually yeet school :') but it’s one of those things… it’s always looming ahead somewhere. Even during the weekend, we probably think about school. And some of us are doing schoolwork then, too, because we have so much. (I do that 🤷🏻♀️) Even during holidays, we know….. school is looming ahead. 😭
the days are getting longer and brighter and the nights are getting shorter. unpopular opinion apparently, but i don’t like it.
for some reason, i don’t seem to be a fan of the light and warmth sun gives. i always keep my blinds closed and the lights mostly off.
also, i can’t explain it, but spring feels really wrong to me. the temperature - in the middle of cold and hot - is strange. you know the hoodie weather. the spring air is weird. idk i just don’t like spring. it feels strange. like- uncomfortable almost. idk.
i left school at around 7pm. a moment of actual break while driving home and then, i have homework waiting for me.