Eva’s Crazy Mind

time moves on, but i don’t. 

i don’t have time.

i don’t have time.

i don’t have time.

i don’t have time..

@justmeeva

*sits here quietly and leaves a warm safes huggiiee for eva beanie* 🫂💙 if it okie to ask, don’t have time for what, eva bean? :o 💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

a n y t h i n g.

@justmeeva

awwe, me sees. :') 😞💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

*but hugsss* 🩷

@justmeeva

*huggle wuggles you vvv tight* me loves you friend <3 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

i loves you more fren, thank you 💕

@justmeeva

mmm no i love you more :P 💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

smh smh, but i will ✨~accept that~✨ even though i feel confident saying i love you more than there are stars in the sky ✨💕

@justmeeva

why you so sweet 😭😭😭💜

that’s a whole lot D: stars in the sky, eh? 🤔 ni friend loves eva friend more than there are atoms in the universe 😎 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

woah woah woah that’s a lot of love. *gives 50% of it back to you and 49% to mi pets ✨ and keeps 1% (but it’s still so much woahh O.o)

@justmeeva

evaaa 😱😱😱 /lh

🤔 no worries! my 1 brain cell shall come up with something! 🧐 *creates the Love Vault ✨ and stores an endless amount of love for evabuddybeanie and other friends* 💜 *sends you the amount of love i sent before times infinity* 🥺 

*sends love for your animal friendos too* 🐾 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

smhhh how am i supposed to get against that? 🥺😭🩷 okok you might give me more love, but i will give you more hugss >:D how’s that sound? >:) 🩷

@justmeeva

xDDDDDDDD

*hugssssss evaaaaa* :P 💜

@justmeeva

now i’m wondering… is love even something that can be counted? 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

the walls eating our hugs and love 😭 (i’m on phone so the text just- halfway poofs to the side 😭)

*hugsssss as long as i can (i has to go soon :c)* 🫂🩷

@justmeeva

hehe yeah that happens when me on phone too :o 💜 and take care evabuddy 🥺 me will ttyl <3 me has to poof in about 20 minutes too :') but 20 minutes is long ish :o 💜 

*keeps hugging* 🥺

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

gtgggg see you later frenn *last squeezie and bapoof* 🩷

@justmeeva

see you later friend… i hope you’re okie. 🥺💜 me will be waiting for you *🪑* 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

i’m (completely) backk 🩷 for some time tho, then i’ll have to go study. (proof to the ‘my whole life is school’ complaint.)

@justmeeva

*huggles youuuu* school is ugh :/ 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

*hugs (ni hugs are the bestest 🩷)*

agreed. 

@justmeeva

*keeps hugging* (Eva hugsss are the bestestestestestestttt 🤗 because you are <3) 

*yeets school* 😎 Ah I genuinely hope we could actually yeet school :') but it’s one of those things… it’s always looming ahead somewhere. Even during the weekend, we probably think about school. And some of us are doing schoolwork then, too, because we have so much. (I do that 🤷🏻‍♀️) Even during holidays, we know….. school is looming ahead. 😭 

the days are getting longer and brighter and the nights are getting shorter. unpopular opinion apparently, but i don’t like it. 

darkness is comforting. that’s what i like. 

for some reason, i don’t seem to be a fan of the light and warmth sun gives. i always keep my blinds closed and the lights mostly off. 

also, i can’t explain it, but spring feels really wrong to me. the temperature - in the middle of cold and hot - is strange. you know the hoodie weather. the spring air is weird. idk i just don’t like spring. it feels strange. like- uncomfortable almost. idk. 

i left school at around 7pm. a moment of actual break while driving home and then, i have homework waiting for me. 

i’m not looking forward to the summer either. unlike many, many others, i don’t even like summer that much. it’s just so.. different. winter is all cozy and chilly and dark, summer is.. literally the opposite. 

ok this thought was not okay. 

“find yourself”, they say. but how do you find something that was never there?

if it’s all or nothing then i choose nothing. 

#kindaintheneedofahug

@justmeeva

I wish I could give you a massive, warm, safe *real* hug… the way you deserve. :') But the best I can do is a virtual hug. So I’m sending all the big hugs your way 💜 You deserve hugs Eva friend. and so much more 🥺💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

thank you ni friend ❤️ thank you. 

@justmeeva

Aww. :') no need to thank me Eva friend. 💜 but you’re welcome. 🥺💜 

And I meant what I said I really do wish I could give you a big, real hug. 

I should go get my pillow friend and imagine it’s Eva bean. 🥺 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

that last part still melts me every time i think about it 🩷

@justmeeva

then we can melt together. 🥺💜 

it feels like i’m so far away from everything and everyone.. like i’m all alone.. and the loneliness is really getting to my heart.