Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i’m too weak to keep going..
i’m not supposed to be here.
@justmeeva where is here?/nfta
@unassumingEyes
just.. here. in general.
@justmeeva
Any place without you is thoroughly missing out.
(Only two types of people dont belong here
Those who try to break others
And those who take advantage of the "broken"
You are neither
You belong here...thats why its so hard to stay)
@justmeeva I gotta go bath
(And if brain had a mean response to that, then no, im not leaving because of you)
*bonks mean brain with bagguette*/lh
No seriously i love you and im super glad youre still alive and id like it to stay that way till like as long as is humanly possible thank you very much ❤️❤️
(I dont hv the brains to know how to help but i love youuu)
and it all happened because of one single flashback.
@justmeeva
😞 flashbacks are painful. and oftentimes we don’t know how to cope with the pain… :') it gets too much. it gets overwhelming…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i tried so many ways of saying what i wanted but to sum it all up, thank you for understanding 🩷
@justmeeva
💜 i guess i understand how it builds up and it gets messy in our heads… and so damn overwhelming. and in that moment it’s hard to know what to do. so we just… mmmm. 😞💜
ni friend don’t wanna be insensitive or anything… 💜 but from what me read me picked up… sh…? 😞 (you don’t have to answer if you feel uncomfy answering ok? 💜)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm.. and to think just a couple of months ago i told myself i’d never ever do that.. idk what happened to me.
tw (you don’t even have to read those)
it’s like.. the 3rd time in my entire life, and they’ve always been triggered by flashbacks.. :’)
@justmeeva
i think me understand that friend because it was the same/a similar way for me… 😞💜 *hugs you tight* i have something for you that helped me and a few friends on here. this: https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/read-this-first/ 💜 maybe just have a peek? 💜
my brain’s making me be all numb and away as if nothing ever happened lol. but i know, you know. doesn’t change the past or make it nonexistent.
