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Eva’s Crazy Mind
justmeeva January 21st
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i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP March 20th
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can’t let those flashbacks ruin my day just yet

justmeeva OP March 20th
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music save me now

justmeeva OP March 20th
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as loud as it can get

justmeeva OP March 20th
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quiet out those memories

justmeeva OP March 20th
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silence out whatever
justmeeva OP March 20th
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wipe those tears and forget the memories, just for now

justmeeva OP March 20th
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“breathe breathe breathe..”

justmeeva OP March 20th
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tw?

this window is pretty high up..

unassumingEyes March 20th
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@justmeeva please dont

justmeeva OP March 20th
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@unassumingEyes

i won’t i won’t i won’t 

LoveMyMoonflowers March 20th
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@justmeeva

🥺

justmeeva OP March 20th
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oof this usually means i’m gonna do something stupid. 

LoveMyMoonflowers March 20th
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@justmeeva

*sitting quietly with you if okay…* 

unassumingEyes March 20th
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@justmeeva we’re here love…just keep breathing, okay? We love you ❤️

justmeeva OP March 20th
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i’ll be back. 

justmeeva OP March 20th
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enough is enough eva 
justmeeva OP March 20th
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but when is enough?

justmeeva OP March 20th
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you idiot. 

justmeeva OP March 20th
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it’s barely 12pm man what the ***

justmeeva OP March 20th
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that didn’t fix anything now what

justmeeva OP March 20th
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ouch..

justmeeva OP March 20th
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the *** have i become. 

justmeeva OP March 20th
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;

justmeeva OP March 20th
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though i wish i didn’t have to.
justmeeva OP March 20th
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tw. 


just keep your arm still and it won’t hurt as much. 

justmeeva OP March 20th
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and to think i planned this day to be a good one. what was i even thinking?

justmeeva OP March 20th
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i’m barely hanging on right now..

justmeeva OP March 20th
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*** this is really hard

justmeeva OP March 20th
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i’m too weak to keep going..

justmeeva OP March 20th
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the song: “something bad is bout to happen to me”

a sign?

justmeeva OP March 20th
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i’m not supposed to be here. 

unassumingEyes March 20th
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@justmeeva where is here?/nfta

justmeeva OP March 20th
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@unassumingEyes 

just.. here. in general. 

unassumingEyes March 20th
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@justmeeva

Any place without you is thoroughly missing out.

(Only two types of people dont belong here

Those who try to break others

And those who take advantage of the "broken" 

You are neither

You belong here...thats why its so hard to stay)

unassumingEyes March 20th
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@justmeeva I gotta go bath 

(And if brain had a mean response to that, then no, im not leaving because of you) 

*bonks mean brain with bagguette*/lh

No seriously i love you and im super glad youre still alive and id like it to stay that way till like as long as is humanly possible thank you very much ❤️❤️

(I dont hv the brains to know how to help but i love youuu)



justmeeva OP March 20th
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@unassumingEyes 

i love you too ❤️

justmeeva OP March 20th
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“way down we go.”

justmeeva OP March 20th
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and it all happened because of one single flashback. 

LoveMyMoonflowers March 20th
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@justmeeva

😞 flashbacks are painful. and oftentimes we don’t know how to cope with the pain… :') it gets too much. it gets overwhelming… 

justmeeva OP March 20th
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@LoveMyMoonflowers 

i tried so many ways of saying what i wanted but to sum it all up, thank you for understanding 🩷

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