in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{I was crying all of this morning because I didn’t want to go to school. I was still getting things done because I had to but I couldn’t stop crying and then my brother wakes up after me and he was like what’s wrong why do you look so sad and he gave me a hug but I couldn’t talk or anything. I don’t even know if I was being dramatic I just hate everything so much and it’s only the second day and I have 10 more months of just this year and then I’ll be a senior and then that’s 3 years and then I don’t know what I’ll do after that but right now this year I’ve barely even started but I wish I could just stop} 

_{one of the guys in my class said I shouldn’t have moved here. but like I can handle it :’) it’s so chaotic way more than the most chaotic moments of my old class but it’s also just like when you talk no one stops everything they’re doing just to stare at you. everyone just minds their own business. they don’t care what you’re doing or what you look like or anything}

_{today we did a mental health test this on this website cause you know, they care about our wellbeing so much. now we have well-being wednesdays like really.}

_{and it was all questions like pick one from the listed below stuff like that} 

_{and I just chose the lowest or worst on everything because I didn’t want to be there :’) and my teacher asked me if I’m sui.cidal} 

I know it’s serious but that made me laugh because..sui.cidal. well not right now I guess that’s a stretch I just don’t want to be here. and he said it’s not funny and now hes mad

it only made me laugh because he was asking me if I was suici.dal after I submitted a mental health test while being depressed about school

I didn’t know all my teachers had access to that. I thought it was just lead teachers or hoy

_{the girl I switched with, she left early yesterday for a doctors appointment and she was absent today. and 2 of the girls in that group that gave us no other choice but to switch. sort of the main ones I guess one of them went did S skip and get caught and I said no she didn’t come in today what do you mean and she kept saying that no she came and she was registered in in period one and two but she’s in my class for those and she didn’t come today at all and I said the teachers probably made a mistake and they kept saying no she skipped i don’t know why they care so much tho} 

_{and another girl was in my arabic class and she asked why I moved out of her class and her friends started banging the tables every time I’d start talking.} 

_{they built so many new things everyone’s so confused because we were gone for 2 months and it feels like we’re in a different school}

_{:3 I saw a cat but I only got my device out while they were walking away}

_{a group of seniors were walking the opposite way and one of them just looked at me and they did the hand thing and they went "well well well look what we have here" and their friends told them to stop}

_{there’re already fights happening.} 

_{we got lectured in assembly by different teachers and everyone was laughing at the heartfelt speech guy I feel bad but there were some funny things he said in a serious tone like he yelled so seriously "there is a difference, between tucking in your shirt, and folding. if you want to fold, fold origami." but if I could use caps :p and then the part where he was like I am speaking from the very bottom of my heart and out of my compassion and etc etc that made people laugh for some reason} 

_{I was looking for my math class and it was really really crowded and two year 7s came and one of them was like my friend thinks you’re cute can he get your snap. and I sort of just huh smiled and continued looking and the kid screamed} 

_{in lead class after we were supposed to do the two truths and a lie with someone our lead teacher was picking some people to say there’s and make the class guess and one guy started his with "um im 6 foot" and the teacher choked on her coffee for a while and everyone started laughing. and some other guy started it with "i like spaghetti" and everyone started laughing again-.}

_{all my ex friends have been talking to me so casually :’) my dad wants me to close. byebye.} 

_{I can’t believe I’m on page 91 :p I always saw those 100+ or even just around 80 page diary threads and even if it’s been around for 2+ years I’d still be shocked because well- 40x100…}

yeah that’s great I lost all the knowledge I’ve ever had

do you add the zeros? that’s 4000 right. or 40,000? I think it’s

*calculator* 

I feel so dumb that was 4000

how do I do so horrible and gets proper marks I don’t even know how I did what I did in English last year I thought my brain was foggy and I was in so much pain and I couldn’t think but like-

land he reads them and assesses them fairly :’) my english teacher was really nice tho and he was really good at helping you understand and actually teaching 

_{theres a new kid that was put next to my friend in the seating plan and everyone’s already picking on him and every time he talks everyone’s like giggling :’) it’s not even an accent it’s just his voice. it’s not weird or anything it’s still- just his voice. :’) but he’s not mainly targeted for that anyway, everyone calls him Leena 2.0} 

_{idk if I can explain why. leena was a girl in this school that left not too many years ago} 

_{I got sooo distractedd :’) I’m surprised I haven’t been caught}