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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP August 28th

I was crying all of this morning because I didnā€™t want to go to school. I was still getting things done because I had to but I couldnā€™t stop crying and then my brother wakes up after me and he was like whatā€™s wrong why do you look so sad and he gave me a hug but I couldnā€™t talk or anything. I donā€™t even know if I was being dramatic I just hate everything so much and itā€™s only the second day and I have 10 more months of just this year and then Iā€™ll be a senior and then thatā€™s 3 years and then I donā€™t know what Iā€™ll do after that but right now this year Iā€™ve barely even started but I wish I could just stopĀ 

iloveyouxx OP August 28th

one of the guys in my class said I shouldnā€™t have moved here. but like I can handle it :ā€™) itā€™s so chaotic way more than the most chaotic moments of my old class but itā€™s also just like when you talk no one stops everything theyā€™re doing just to stare at you. everyone just minds their own business. they donā€™t care what youā€™re doing or what you look like or anything

iloveyouxx OP August 28th

today we did a mental health test this on this website cause you know, they care about our wellbeing so much. now we have well-being wednesdays like really.

and it was all questions like pick one from the listed below stuff like thatĀ 

and I just chose the lowest or worst on everything because I didnā€™t want to be there :ā€™) and my teacher asked me if Iā€™m sui.cidalĀ 

I know itā€™s serious but that made me laugh because..sui.cidal. well not right now I guess thatā€™s a stretch I just donā€™t want to be here. and he said itā€™s not funny and now hes mad

it only made me laugh because he was asking me if I was suici.dal after I submitted a mental health test while being depressed about school

I didnā€™t know all my teachers had access to that. I thought it was just lead teachers or hoy

iloveyouxx OP August 28th

the girl I switched with, she left early yesterday for a doctors appointment and she was absent today. and 2 of the girls in that group that gave us no other choice but to switch. sort of the main ones I guess one of them went did S skip and get caught and I said no she didnā€™t come in today what do you mean and she kept saying that no she came and she was registered in in period one and two but sheā€™s in my class for those and she didnā€™t come today at all and I said the teachers probably made a mistake and they kept saying no she skipped i donā€™t know why they care so much thoĀ 

and another girl was in my arabic class and she asked why I moved out of her class and her friends started banging the tables every time Iā€™d start talking.Ā 

iloveyouxx OP August 28th

they built so many new things everyoneā€™s so confused because we were gone for 2 months and it feels like weā€™re in a different school

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iloveyouxx OP August 28th
im gonna take pictures next time
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iloveyouxx OP August 28th

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:3 I saw a cat but I only got my device out while they were walking away

iloveyouxx OP August 28th

a group of seniors were walking the opposite way and one of them just looked at me and they did the hand thing and they went "well well well look what we have here" and their friends told them to stop

thereā€™re already fights happening.Ā 

we got lectured in assembly by different teachers and everyone was laughing at the heartfelt speech guy I feel bad but there were some funny things he said in a serious tone like he yelled so seriously "there is a difference, between tucking in your shirt, and folding. if you want to fold, fold origami." but if I could use caps :p and then the part where he was like I am speaking from the very bottom of my heart and out of my compassion and etc etc that made people laugh for some reasonĀ 

I was looking for my math class and it was really really crowded and two year 7s came and one of them was like my friend thinks youā€™re cute can he get your snap. and I sort of just huh smiled and continued looking and the kid screamedĀ 

in lead class after we were supposed to do the two truths and a lie with someone our lead teacher was picking some people to say thereā€™s and make the class guess and one guy started his with "um im 6 foot" and the teacher choked on her coffee for a while and everyone started laughing. and some other guy started it with "i like spaghetti" and everyone started laughing again-.

all my ex friends have been talking to me so casually :ā€™) my dad wants me to close. byebye.Ā 

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iloveyouxx OP August 28th
I snuck on.
iloveyouxx OP August 28th

I left my house at 7:15 on the first day. I was waiting for my friends (I think I can call her my friend now ;-; I kept waiting for the moment sheā€™d idk hate me or leave or make other friends and replace me but idk) bus but apparently she doesnā€™t go by bus anymore

and I used to be in a group of 5 (best friends) and we stopped being friends a long time ago but one of them just ran up to me and started talking so excitedly and she hugged me and I was just talking the same way she wasĀ 

she used to be in the class Iā€™m in now, 9b. but she just switched this year too. I was thinking like sheā€™d be the only good part if we actually ended up talking or something but the year I switch she switches to my old class. it used to be me, A(her), A, F and J and I was like aw youā€™re so lucky youā€™re gonna be with J and A and F and she was like oh well not F and I knew there were like problems I guess F was making her feel left out and then A told all of them about it and F wasnā€™t taking anything seriously and was sort of rude sometimes :ā€™)Ā 


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iloveyouxx OP August 28th
and then we saw my friend and everything else after that is so..I mean I remember everything itā€™s just. if I start then I wonā€™t know where to stop it was such a long day
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iloveyouxx OP August 29th

we saw J in assembly and she kept waving at us and by the time the pe assembly started my friend left early so J started talking to me and she was like (nadia) why did you move and today I talked to A (a different one-) after science because she was in my science set and both of them kept saying that now her and A J (f still hasnā€™t come back) are the only not popular girls in the class because like 2/3 new girls joined that group and are already just like everyone in it and people moved to that class so now theyā€™re one big group and they wonā€™t stop staring at my friends like "O-O"

oh and I stayed after school with J because her mom was so far away when she called her and she was alone so :ā€™) no one yelled at me in front of the guests or after they left or anything.Ā 

and I had another friend from 9c that also wonā€™t stop talking to me casually


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iloveyouxx OP August 28th

I canā€™t believe Iā€™m on page 91 :p I always saw those 100+ or even just around 80 page diary threads and even if itā€™s been around for 2+ years Iā€™d still be shocked because well- 40x100ā€¦

yeah thatā€™s great I lost all the knowledge Iā€™ve ever had

do you add the zeros? thatā€™s 4000 right. or 40,000? I think itā€™s

*calculator*Ā 

I feel so dumb that was 4000

how do I do so horrible and gets proper marks I donā€™t even know how I did what I did in English last year I thought my brain was foggy and I was in so much pain and I couldnā€™t think but like-

land he reads them and assesses them fairly :ā€™) my english teacher was really nice tho and he was really good at helping you understand and actually teachingĀ 

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iloveyouxx OP August 28th
get* and*-
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iloveyouxx OP August 28th

theres a new kid that was put next to my friend in the seating plan and everyoneā€™s already picking on him and every time he talks everyoneā€™s like giggling :ā€™) itā€™s not even an accent itā€™s just his voice. itā€™s not weird or anything itā€™s still- just his voice. :ā€™) but heā€™s not mainly targeted for that anyway, everyone calls him Leena 2.0Ā 

idk if I can explain why. leena was a girl in this school that left not too many years agoĀ 


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iloveyouxx OP August 28th
she had bad mental issues and she talked about mrder a lotĀ 
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iloveyouxx OP August 28th
she had a pocket knife on her all the time and a spare in her bag. sheā€™d go around saying things like "concussion or stabbing or do I strangle them"
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iloveyouxx OP August 28th

I got sooo distractedd :ā€™) Iā€™m surprised I havenā€™t been caughtĀ