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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP August 29th

I made another friend from my new class. she used to just stare at me all the time so I thought she didnā€™t like me but she was just lonely because she switched here too :ā€™)Ā 

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

I was thinking, maybe I should add a tw, so here I am xD thereā€™s a mentioned um..object? that was used for an unaliving attempt. maybe the tw should have a tw what- this isnā€™t triggering right. and thereā€™s also mentions of unaliving so TWšŸ¤

the girl came today she had the funniest story about how she managed to not come yesterdayĀ 

and Iā€™ve been laughing all day because honestly with her I always am something funny always happens or one of us says something really funny and then weā€™re both crying laughing but when I laugh my stomach hurts more and it still hurts all the way till nowĀ 

im so confused no but really I come home and then I think about the day and Iā€™m so confused because why am I having good days. and I donā€™t want to be so happy because I know the girls gonna make new friends and leave so easily and then Iā€™ll relive year 7 year 7 was such a horrible year for me it was the year I just stood there with the knife for so long and well maybe I shouldnā€™t talk about it :ā€™)Ā 

I donā€™t know if anyoneā€™s noticed but, Iā€™ve been trying to not talk about the negativest of thingsšŸ˜ŽI think Iā€™m doing great/j

i donā€™t even remember what I was talking about beforeĀ 

but yeah it was the first year I actually attempted- I had a full plan to when I was 7 but it was really stupid and how I thought and everything but when I was 10/11 that was when it got really bad year 7 was really really bad.

i went up to third floor, Iā€™m gonna stay for a while but not too long Iā€™m gonna leave at like 3:30 maybe and if not too many teachers are there Iā€™ll take pictures of all the things they built cause itā€™s also for myself xDĀ 

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

I had food given to me for school today. and I gave it all to my friend. she was really happy xD

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iloveyouxx OP August 29th
well. tbh :ā€™) I didnā€™t really have it given to me, but I took some and put them in my bag and I already planned to give it all to her from thenĀ 
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iloveyouxx OP August 29th

I might start going down now because Iā€™m still gonna just go around so

*temporarypoof*

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

there were so many teachers I couldnā€™t

i logged on somewhere else because one of our guests is having a call in my room and I put my bag in my room :ā€™)Ā 

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

I have a presentation I need to get done. for moral ed

Iā€™m so tired. Iā€™ve been sleeping right after school too much and itā€™s not a good habit I knowĀ 

I have a french test tomorrow but itā€™s only a baseline for the teachers to know where we are as a class :p

i feel so disappointing this year Iā€™m having the same french teacher I had in year 7 and she loved me so much and she was like (nadia) is really good at french normally I think and then she made me read out my answers and I mean they were answered but not as good as I used to be I feel like every time my mind is on something or I learn something or something happens i forget everything else beforeĀ 

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

my lead teacher was yelling at me for so long today I just hate her she got the email from the teacher that helped me get to my class so that my lead teacher can help me get on my account

and I told her how IT told me she had the passwords and everything I needed for my account and apps

and she was like yeah and she said that yesterday I told her specifically that the problem was with the internet and thatā€™s why she told me to go down to ITĀ 

but I swear :ā€™) I could swear on everything a billion times itā€™s how sure I am. I swear I told her I remember I told her my device got reseted so my school accounts arenā€™t there anymore and I remember she asked me do you know any of the passwords and I said no and she asked why my ipad got reseted and I told her like I got locked out and we couldnā€™t access it and she was like okay in break go down to IT theyā€™ll help you get your accounts back

couldnt that day went the next they said my lead teacher has all of that I got lost and couldnā€™t find anyone a teacher found me and emailed my lead teacher literally just to help me access my account she didnā€™t lecture her for not doing her job properly

but I walked in lead today and she wanted to talk so I went to her and I just stood there the whole time and she was like

(nadia) okay this is unbelievable right now youā€™re making it appear as if Iā€™m not doing my job properlyĀ 

like youā€™re such a *** lead teacher I wonā€™t like vent about it but she was yelling at me like she was my mom I hope she gets fired sheā€™s just ruthless :ā€™)Ā 

and I kept saying Iā€™m sorry and that ill tell the teacher it was my mistakeĀ 

like should I tell her youā€™re an awesome lead teacher too

but for a long time she kept saying that I said the problem was my internet and I kept saying maybe she heard wrong or maybe she saw me raise my hand when she asked who had a problem with their device and maybe she assumed it was the internet from there but I kept saying that I definitely didnt say that and I knew she was getting madder the more I denied but I know Iā€™m right Iā€™m not just gonna be like yeah youā€™re totally right I did say that when I didnā€™tĀ 

she gave up eventually and literally just got my accounts back so easy like it was never even that big of a deal

guests left Iā€™m gonna go change and maybe sleep Iā€™m really tired.

byebye.

<3

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

Iā€™m back :> again. Iā€™m trying really hard not to fall asleep because maybe if I sleep after sunset but still early enough Iā€™ll be able to wake up and like not start crying about the time because part of the reason I was crying that day was because I woke up at 6:21 and I was crying so hard because itā€™s like what the second day and Iā€™m waking up at 6:21 and I was so mad and really sad because I didnā€™t even want to go to school and now I was forced to get ready in a couple of minutes when I planned to be up at like 3am idk to do what but it makes me feel safer and better to be awake then and not have to rush like crazy to make it to the gates I really hate walking throughĀ 

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

in moral ed in like the middle of that lesson the teacher was spinning a name wheel and whoever it goes on would have to tell us the last time they were in conflict with someone and what happened and after some awkward people it landed on one guy and everyone started..yelling, talking, screaming, and um what I got out of it was ohhhh (Iā€™m gonna call him n) nā€™s got a good oneĀ 

and he said it was 30 minutes ago. (actually some people were yelling over him that it was like 30 minutes ago then he said it himself and went on so I guess other people were there) with someone in the class and they were in conflict because the person was being racist to them and everyone went crazy again and some people were yelling to say who it was and some were just laughing and some people were like oh well that got um..

and then later after the teacher said that racism is taken really seriously in this school she made people raise their hands and say what they think n should do if heā€™s receiving racismĀ 

and one guy raised his hand and he looked at n and went "just donā€™t care" and the teacher picked someone else I donā€™t remember what they said and then another guy raised his hand and he went "I think he should either tell a teacher.." and everyone just starting cussing at him and it started with the guy that said just donā€™t care saying bro get a life

and then he finished it with "or if you want to you can just punch him in the face" and everyone got excited againĀ 

iloveyouxx OP August 29th

there are physical fights happening already but really serious fights and itā€™s only the third day backĀ