in the wonders of my mindđ.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnât look like međ§makes sense doesnât itđsince there can only be one *me*âšone of a kind now arent Iđ/sar. one out of 8118835999âšđ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youâre also one of a kindđ sorrysorry haha :Pđ€im just messing around xDđalso itâs 2am- but shush no snitchingđ€«Iâll sleep in a whileđwhen Iâm feeling a bit more sane :>đđ©·
wanted to have my own space.đ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.đ
to whoever's coming across :'3đplease dont lurk here.đ©· I know anyone can have access to this forum :')đbut please be respectfulđ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pđ yâall get crazy nosy haha- itâs alright.đnothing too interesting will be here anywayđif you would like to come in and be supportive itâs completely okieđbut please donât make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitđbecause Iâd still like this to be just my space ^-^đ)
what too much information looks like- and yeah I had to crop my name out :p donât try anything.
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i mean :0 itâs fine :0 but a couple of hours before I cleared out all my notifications then this :0
@iloveyouxx heh i hvnt had less than 99 notifs in so long...Â
@unassumingEyes
do you still not cross any of them out :0 do they just..sit there :pTvTđ©·?
@iloveyouxx i dont cross out the upvotes đ©·Â
@unassumingEyes
ouhhđ©·I had alot of your upvotes too but I crossed them out cos I was trying to see like :p I was trying to first delete the ones from for example those weekly check ins and yk that mindful stuff :p then some other stuff then I was trying to see how many upvotes I had in total compared to in this forum :p that was including yours but I completely forgot those :âPđ©·
36 of them were upvotes from this forum :p and I was wondering how that was even possible but one forum page is 40 posts- and I didnât really check all of the notifications but I just still know it just by looking over them.
Iâm so tired. so much happened today. again :P. idk. I didnât do the history presentation and I didnât get a standards card. he just didnât care. not even a little. tomorrow is my math pt but thatâs okay cos i know itâs easy. eid break after next week and alot of people are traveling because after that thereâre no tests and itâs like thereâs no point in being in school anymore. I feel like so much changed. and you know it changed because i donât even think I have the time to talk about it :â) the girls birthday is in 2 weeks. she agreed to switching classes and idrk why I thought she wouldnât- so weâre both switching next year. summer breakâs 2 months and I kinda wanna spend that (very-very-very :â)) little time fixing my hair. lol fixing- my hairs fine. on the outside. I mean it looks fine or healthy or whatever but itâs not even natural and Iâve been treating my 3a-3c curly hair like silk straight hair and itâs just messing it up when itâs in itâs natural state the curls arenât defined anymore and. Iâll stop talking about my hair :p. Iâm not excited for year 9. year10 is mock exams and gcses but Iâd honestly prefer going to year 10. idk. R almost asked the girl what happened with her and our classmates andâ ïžI mean she just ignored it the same way she does when anyone else asks since heâs not the only one but like whyâ ïžthe class were moving to isnât dramatically far :p itâs just from 9A to 9B :p but trust me thereâs a big difference :p we have lead classes until N so thereâs 9A-9N and thats I think like 600(/ish from something they said in an assembly) students. I know all of them ;-; all around 600. you canât really not honestly. like you canât be in this school and not know at least your own yeargroup :p I have to go look at something-Iâll be back later-
@iloveyouxx i didnt know where to post this so im posting it here. I made this for u đ©· it didnt turn out as well as i wanted it to...i had a dark day đ« hope this cn brighten yours a little <3Â
The pic is so bad đđ ill send a brighter pic when mom isnt glaring at me promise đ©·
@unassumingEyes okok text reads cosmos "peace"Â
Rose "love"
Potato flower "potato"
Baby's breath "kindness"Â
Bluebell "resilience"Â
@unassumingEyes
this is so sweet đ„șđ you two are such sweet friends đ nadseyloaf and eyes bean đÂ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
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@iloveyouxx
*hugs if okay* đđđ ni friend loves you nadseyloaf đđđ
@unassumingEyes @iloveyouxx ok i dont even know if u saw this yet altho there are...4 upvotes so one cld be u but i wanted to tell u a lil incident around this for whenever u see it đđÂ
So i started this with the rose in the center and then my aunt + family came to visit...including my 4yr old female cousin...who drew over the rose when i wasnt looking đ and proudly showed it off to everyone đđ thankfully she just outlined the rose but she did it very darkly so it wasnt erasing đ but i made it work...i think xD just erased the very weird and very pointy parts xD so this is frm me and my 4yr old cousin xDÂ
@unassumingEyes
why is that so cute and funny⊠đđđđ„șđ
@LoveMyMoonflowers dont miss frustrating xD i had such a fright till i realized it was salvageable xDÂ
@unassumingEyes
omg thatâs so cuteđđđI remember I used to ask my brother (that was really really good at hyper realistic art) to draw stuff for me then Iâd show it to people and be like "tadaaaaaaaa!"â ïžđI swear I did say that tho I was so stupid xDđIâm sorry for the really really really late reply :') I feel better now btw- I replied to everything in the other forum and then tagged you and said a bunch of other stuff. but then when I was typing "byyeee" I went back to remove the second y I think then the screen paused :D and I couldnât click anything at all. not even tabs or zoom in or scroll or close or anything- then my device just got possessed and started idek then the screen turned black then it opened again but I was in incognito but when it opened it was in normal tabs and it was grey(refreshing) and cups tabs were all on that therapy login page thing :')đ©·at the time I had to come back because my friend that I havenât seen in probably 4 months just came back like literally at that moment TvTđ€and then side affects from sumthing that happened earlier started causing alot of physical pain :p so I ended up forgetting everything about yk whatever I said and all that(I still honestly donât remember anything xD) and then I was really overwhelmingly happy for no reason so thatâs when I wrote that really long thing and it got deleted then the feeling went away and I got sleepy so I fell asleep :Pđ:ppp I hope you liked my very long explanation :pppđIâm gonna save the drawing btwđI love it so much. btw if you want better quality you can use links but itâs just so you knowđbecause and this applies to everything but if you use the button the quality is usually pretty :p idk itâs just kinda :p xDđ€Iâm also sorry if Iâm like switching alot. I remember that night I was like crying breaking down shaking panicking hating everything and having a tic attach and minutes later I was so happy and now I just kinda donât care but itâs just like, now my emotions are really extreme :') If Iâm sad Iâm really really sad and if Iâm happy Iâm really really happy ykđ©·Iâm trying tho. also my brothers mad at me cos Iâm not doing smth I was meant to :Pđ€also Iâm at 4% and I was meant to do it on my device xD and where Iâm working thereâs no space for chargers xD and I canât use another device rn xD yeah idk why I chose now out of all times to reply :pđsorryđ©·tcđwait thereâs too much pink here xDđđ** better :D take caree â€ïž ily<3
(gifs arenât working again but- ilyâ€ïžI just searched "you mean alot to me" xD then I searched "im sorry" and idk why I expected it to work the second time xDâ€ïž?)
@iloveyouxx
Cups nommed my tag which, rude xDÂ
It was rlly nice to see ur reply đ i totally get asking ur brither to draw stuff and showing it to others xD
my net is like trash as always but anywaysÂ
**sends healing beams for whatever caused you pain**Â
Sbshjdh what was the sorry gif supposed to be for- :0Â
I love you too đ very very much/gen
@unassumingEyes
xD predictable xDđIâm done with the thing I was working on I just need to like âš*âš*âšyknow :pđ?? this is really random but Iâm going to a hotel tmrw for eid al adha đ are you doing anything :0 btw idk the confirmed day I just know weâre staying there for like 5 6 days :pđ€I really love that hotel hehe :3 I wish I could stop feeling so bad about talking about myself. no matter what it was. howâre youđ©·? I have to go soonish but I think you already left since itâs later for youđ
oop 1% again gonna be fastđ yeah he wouldnât do that now xD but I just loved all the attention xDđ
my net is full bars. as always :p dang that has no complaint to it xD I canât last without internet. yours needs to behave D:
oh it was kinda on purpose but not like that like- I knew I wasnât meant to do it but like I didnât do it to hurt myself or anything xD I knew it was most likely gonna affect me later but :p btw itâs more of curiosity and boredom than anything yk mental health related just incaseđ©·
:0 eyes :0 okay Iâm definitely gonna run out of charge idk how Iâm still at 1% but I have so many things to apologize for :0 also I have a qs and a bunch of other things to say but maybe later XD my batteryđ
i love you more thođnew heart emoji :0 I knew it existed but never seen anyone use it butđđI love youđ
hows my charge still going- gotta go tho seriously XD byyyeeeeeeđđđđđ©·đ
@iloveyouxx we're going out for eid gonna hv sm ice cream it's tmrrw for us :pÂ
Im...alive xDÂ
**confused eyes noises about what you did out of boredom that caused pain**Â Â
Im curious about all the things u hv to say đ but ur battery was against me dhdbhdd
My net is a little better (did anyone notice? xD/jk)
Idk what to say now :p so I love you â€ïž
(I knowwww no-one uses those hearts xD)Â
@unassumingEyes
ice cream :00đđŠđâšyeah its today :0 which was tmrw when that was posted so xD I hope youâre having a good day <3đđđ
đ©·you seem so down these daysđI hope youâre at least okay today :') on eid :')đI wanna listen if you want to talk about itđ
xD I just realized how bad that sounded xD
my battery is 28% now :0 and I forgot what I wanted to sayđđ
ouh :0 I didnât xD btw eyes :0 do you remember on June 3rd you said "ill send a brighter pic when mom isnt glaring at me". your mom has been glaring at you for a long time :0/j/j/j/j sorry xDđI sound so mean xDđI love the pic tho you never had to do anything to itđ
I love you more â€ïžâ€ïž
(oop I forgot- I love you moređđđ***xD)
@iloveyouxx nadiaa the timezones are confusing me :p eid is tmrrw fr us :p i posted that at like 12 today :p todays eid for u? Eid mubarak đ
Im a mess nowadays lol but its fine xD
XD my mom likes to do two things:Â
Play candy crush
Glare at me
:pÂ
I love you...most! :p đđ
@unassumingEyes
what :0 wait but eyes youâre only an hour ahead of me :0 and itâs saturday for both of us right? Iâm very confused :pđ12pm? awweđeid mubarakđbut likeâŠthe early versionâš
Itâs not fine tho. >:đive said it like 3 times butđ©·if you ever wanna talk about anything at all Iâd love to listenđno matter what it wasđ
XD đ I just thought..eyes mom had been glaring at eyes for a long timeđ§đđ©·it wasnât anything targeted at you itâs just I have so much free time xD and I know you donât. also omg agjinyabgauyinauyagna eyes why do they all love candy crush omgâ ïžmy grandma plays candy crush xD and so many like middle aged to old women I know xD itâs likeâ ïžwabnabngggyuavbgabvuaybgaa theyâre so xD theyâre just built so similar Iâm like xD/lh
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@iloveyouxx
Im travelliiiing remember our timezones are more different :p (ew)Â
Eid mubarak (late version?) Frndo <3
Thank you frnd â€ïž eyes is just being dumb :p
We made the very big mistake to introduce mom to candy crush xDÂ
Aw love you forever too potato frnd đ
@unassumingEyes
youre travelllliiinngggg :0đoh wait :0 ohhhhhh :0 so what time would it be there nowđ€?
:0 itâs still eid xD thankyou <3 eid mubarak đ
i donât think soâ€ïžbut nu pressure.â€ïž
XD typical xD they spend so much time on it too xD
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that emoji is actually cute idk why no one ever uses it :pđIâm gonna use it moređI donât like some of the heart emojis xD likeâŁïž that especially xD idk why itâs just like what does that even mean xD and why not just use any other heart emoji :p? XD maybe Iâm being judgy xD:pđđđ©·
@iloveyouxx
Its 1pm :pÂ
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My moms playing candy crush rn đ
Pfft that ones a weird one yeah and I like the design of this: â€ïžâđ„ but I dont get it xDÂ
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@unassumingEyes
oof now I have to calculate from what time it was when I posted that TvT umm hold on..10 hours ago. itâs 10:50. âŠâŠâŠâŠ6? thatâs 4 hours ago..wait is it 2. 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10..I donât know how to count. sorry Iâm tired hehe sorry :pđ1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9- idk where I am nvm. Iâm gonna ask chatgpt :p okie it wouldâve been 1 because itâs basically 11 :p and it says 10 hours ago so yk. Iâm so tired sorry xD oh wait :0 you said it was 1 :0 Iâm gonna leave this math aside until I can thinkđ©·
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â ïžâ ïžtheyâre so dedicated in it like I swear idek where my grandma is in it anymore xD idk how she does it xD
oh I always thought it was like meant to show deep dramatic love xD romantic Iâm pretty sure but just a guess hold on lemme google it :D "A heart shown on fire, for extreme or passionate forms of love or lust. Most representative of desire or lust, this emoji may also indicate a sense of burning a past love and moving on."  I didnât read it until the end but same same :pđI found it on emojipedia XDđ
đđ(its genuinely so cute hehe I love it <3đđ)
@iloveyouxx the counting đ i wld do it but im too tired aswell xD
Yeahhh we gave it to mom at like level 170 i think shes in 2000 smthing đ
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah that makes sense "burning passion" because its on fire xDÂ
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@justmeeva
evađ©·so obviously Iâm about to run out of charge but I was working on sumthing and I know you might not be idk- at the best state to see it right now?đim not sure. itâs good tho dwđ©·itâs like, quality Iâd say xD yeah idk xD but if it was effort Iâd say it is good :Pđbtw itâs more like. you know when you study until like 3am for that one math test you completely procrastinated studying for all month. or maybe thatâs just me. but yeah my point is itâs more like something I felt like I needed to do rather than mm idk. do you get it :0đ©·Iâm definitely gonna run out of charge and I want this to post so Iâm gonna leave it at thatđif you donât want to reply btw you really donât have to.đI just wanted to make sure but if you donât reply Iâll just wait until I get your consent or like agreement but dw I wonât be like *waiting* waiting :Pđitâs just that itâs for you and if you donât feel like it or you donât want to see it yet then thatâd have to be your choiceđI know you said itâs rare but I really hope youâre at least okay :â)đ©·đ©·.
@iloveyouxxÂ
oh wow, iâm late. :â) you made me smile with this nadia friend đ©· i think itâs only right to give you my permission, knowing you probably put a lot of effort into it, whatever it is <3 genuinely though, i couldnât decline such an offer. đ©· now iâm curious heheÂ
*meanwhile, sends you optional warm hugs* đ
@justmeeva
youâre not lateđ©·whatâs 12-7 hehe :p<33 uhhhhhmmmmâŠâŠ7..8..9..10..11..12 so thatâsâŠ5? 5+7..oh yeah that is 12 :0 you were only 5 hours late thatâs nothing plus I posted really really late at night for both of usđand now Iâm 7 hours late lol :pđ
yaaaayyyyyyyđ©·đ©·okay so Iâm traveling in like an hour so I just need to record and try and get it right :â) Iâm sorry if itâs bad xD and if i post later Iâm sorry too because my dads gonna wake up like right now and heâs gonna get mad at me because Iâm not ready at all :pđIâll try to be quickđ©·
:0 crosses out optional :0đevahugs are the bestđ
*meanwhile, sends you optional warm hugs* đÂ
@iloveyouxxÂ
same, nadia, same xD the struggle with the math is real xD /lh
<3 record? you really have my interest now :0 but tyt tyt iâll try to be patient :pÂ
*hugssss* đ©·đ©·
i see what you did there, copying my kindness huh /lh /j <3
love you nadia friend đđ
@justmeeva
xD I canât calculate 5 + 7 and Iâm expected to do mock exams and gcse one day ;-; and to pass ? and graduate ? and get a good job ? xD ?
yus yus record hehe<3 whatâd you think it was xD a picture xD a link to a reminder xD lmao I stayed up for hours- itâs not like amazing amazing but considering especially rn my memory and attention span is- horrible :D it took a while and Iâm happy I did it <3 itâs gonna be 3/4 minutes long. oh btw :â) you might have to try to be patient like :p more :p:D bcos I tried to do it then the first couple of times I was remembering from last night, then I was getting the last part, then I was recording then I got mad and slammed the thing cos I kept messing upâ ïžthen I really really really got it- then my dad woke up and I had to go get ready and bags and stuff, then after all that I still knew everything so I was recording and I got so much done and I was almost done and it was going so well then my brother came and started annoying me but idk why he woke up so mean like he was really really annoying me :â) then I got really upset then my dad got mad that we were "fighting" now and started yelling at my brother, then I kept trying to record and my dad would keep yelling, then I got one really really good but this guy decided to come in in the last part and ring the doorbell then my dad was talking so loud, then they went outside so I could record again, and now ofc I was at the vv end when they went back inside and my dad was just going "yeah, yeah, thankyou, thankyou, yeah, thankyou" đđwas that necessaryđđđwghahsuygit hugsyit đ but yeah I really have it planted in my head now :D and I just need to wait until I go back there and have it be the first thing I do before anything else :Dđ
đ©·*hugs you so tight that you wish you never offered a hug in the first place*đ©·/j/j/lh
đyk that button that has an S and it has a line in the middle? I did that for the word optional but every time I post anything with that it goes like off when I postđ XD ?? since when were you this fun XD /lh sorry xD I just mean like xDđyou are funđand sweet and kind and lovely and you have beautiful energyđbut like xDđ
I love you more eva beanđ©·đđ
@justmeeva
btw friend. I know you havenât asked for this or anything but I just wanted to say that I know youâre hurting. and you donât have to say anything at all to me. Iâll just try to be here and understand. so apparently Iâm traveling back on tuesday and Iâll make sure the things posted by then :0 thankyou for trying to be patient lolđ©·I love youđ©·/gen.Â
@kiyoluv nfta but I really really did miss youđ©·and I was so worried about you. I tried checking forums and rooms but you only had one and nothing there(recently at least or to know youâre okay)and I never saw you in rooms. I just really hope youâre okayđ©·I love youđ©·/sovvvvgenđ
I just wanted it to be over. I just want it to be over.Â